buckeye Posted July 29, 2011 Posted July 29, 2011 Well tomorrow marks the one year anniversary of the final papers being signed. I haven't posted for some time now though I do lurk here to gain insight and motivation. I didn't feel qualified to offer any advice or comments. I was married over 25 years after which my ex decided she no longer wanted to be married to me. She had at minimum, one and maybe up to three EAs. Now that seems to be over and she now is going out with a old H.S. classmate. He's separated from his wife. I don't know how many meltdowns complete with sobbing I've had over the last year. The embarrassment I felt for having a failed marriage and the feeling I failed my kids, drug me way down. But I can say that I am healing. I now know it wasn't just me. It was her. I've come to the realization that I could never go back to once was. That girl is gone forever. I recently saw her with her new boyfriend and I didn't feel much of anything. I lost respect for her after her running around with married guys some time ago. I can't say I totally healed, but I'm getting there. I signed up on a dating sight and have had a few contacts. Maybe I'll even go out with one someday. I don't know if I'll ever want a long term relationship again. I kind of like doing what I want and when. Best of Luck to all of you. I hope we all find peace and happiness.
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