Desmondl Posted July 28, 2011 Posted July 28, 2011 Here's my story( my english is somewhat bad so it might not be smooth) , i met this girl at tuition(shes from a diff school) 2 years ago. when i first saw her i felt like i somewhat know her but at that time i just shrug it off. then after a while i cant stop thinking of her so i asked for her email and chatted. after that i horribly found out she was the gf of one of my friends(he mentioned her name so that's why its familiar). so i back off and thought what the heck, its just a measly puppy crush. then fast forward a few weeks i still cant stop thinking of her and my feelings grew strong for her. she chatted with me about her relationship with my friend and how it got many problems(lack of communication). part of me wanted played devil and break them up tho i din and i did all i can to save it but fast forward a few months they broke up when we all were in the same pre-university school which is around beginning of this year. all those time i was so happy whenever she find me to chat(tho 70% i find her), was devastated when i saw her depress and i cant do nothing. after she broke up with my friend, i thought i had a chance but i rethink and din confess cause it might be too much for her to handle plus that time was in the middle of major exams, din want to affect her grades. after that we went to tution together at our old teacher and i was joy cause this means i get to see her more(she lives extremely far) but then there was another student, a boy. turns out that boy is her friend and she likes him and he likes her but he has a girlfriend. at that time till now, the boy was experiencing problems with his relationship and she(the girl i love) seems to really care and always help him and i was starting to feel distant from her. after a while i couldnt stand it i confess to her and i was let down gently. i tried moving on but it failed. now recently the guy broke up and everytime at tution and school she and him would be so close( they not together), exchanging glance, flirting around a little while i just watched and now 9/10 times i tried to start a conversation with her, it would die within first 5 sec mostly she either din heard me or she reply in extreme short answers...( extremely depress inside). fyi the guy is sorta handsome, athletic and smart and nice(almost perfect). the girl is really nice and pretty while im average and struggling with studies. i also got a feeling sometimes i annoy her when im around with her so i was planning that after i finish making her b day present(i promised to give her something unique) (origami bunny) and giving it to her, i would force myself to cut all contact with her and stop being her friend. is that the right thing to do? im going insane everyday seeing her being so close to that guy but i also glad shes very happy. even tho meeting her caused me so much depression and misery for the past 2 years if given the choice i still choose to meet her cause i think shes the best thing ever happen to me..
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