aerogurl87 Posted July 27, 2011 Posted July 27, 2011 So it's going on 5 months since I moved to be with my boyfriend. I should be happy and enjoying every moment... but I'm not. I think about my ex almost every day and I always wonder what would've happened if I'd at least met up with him one time. Something I didn't do since my boyfriend (who I was broken up with at the time) guilted me into not going and I eventually talked myself into thinking it wasn't worth it even though I really wanted to go. Anyway, almost daily now I contemplate leaving and going back home and sometimes even going to visit my ex. I don't know what's wrong with me but I need to vent somewhere since I have no one else to talk to about how I'm feeling.
0hpenelope Posted July 27, 2011 Posted July 27, 2011 Thanks for sharing, aerogurl. I remember your story and I'm still rooting for you. Hopefully this is just a phase and you can sort this through.
Author aerogurl87 Posted July 28, 2011 Author Posted July 28, 2011 Thanks for sharing, aerogurl. I remember your story and I'm still rooting for you. Hopefully this is just a phase and you can sort this through. Thanks. I'm hoping it is as well. I'm just trying to figure out if this is a case of me being way too curious for my own good about seeing my ex coupled with some major homesickness. Or if I'm really just not happy with where I'm at now. I think other than my boyfriend's guilting me into not going, I didn't go because my ex's intentions didn't seem completely clear at the time and I was in no way emotionally or financially ready to go see him if I wasn't sure what it was that he wanted. And so in a way I see the reasons I didn't leave resting with both of us. With his nonchalant attitude and my being scared of the uncertain. I guess in the end it was just a risk I wasn't willing to take.
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