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ConfusedGuy28

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I'm ****ing exhausted guys and girls. I had gone a year without seeing anyone after breaking up with my LTR of 9 years, and I was cool. I had residency coming up July 2012 and thought until then (when I'd be in a new area, settled in a new professional life, etc) I'd just stay single.

 

Then....comes crazy girl #1 (long story)

Then....comes Ms. Borderline (that story should be well known, lol)

Then....comes "You don't realize how busy I am because I have so many friends" girl

Then....the worst of them all. The muslim girl who I've been good friends with for over 4 years.

 

For some reason - I made a thread about her a few weeks ago and people jumped on the fact that I needed to convert (even though I clearly stated I came to peace with that decision....people for some reason pretended to know me better than I know myself...so I abandoned the thread)

 

I ended things with her July 12th. She calls me a week later. I thought perhaps she reconsidered or wanted to work on being friends again. Over the next week she calls me only for the purpose of me helping her get situated in her rotation schedule (both in med school). I answered the phone the first time she called, and avoided her texts and calls after that.

 

Monday she asks to talk (even though I've been extremely busy and have put off talking to family for the past week+). I send her a msg on facebook explaining why I don't want to talk to her, what's going on with me, etc. Still wasn't good enough for her. She spun everything on her and started blaming me for not being able to talk to her???

 

I told her to leave me the **** alone today (not as bluntly, and in many more words) thru text - because I'm unable to speak to her on the phone without getting a tightness in my chest. She said "ok, that's fine....but can you help me with my schedule now" I couldn't believe reading that text...and told her "GOODBYE"

 

Now - what's bothering me so G_D damned much (don't want to offend anyone) is the length to which I went mentally for this girl, and nothing was reciprocated. There was an implied promise, but in the end she just walked away, and threw me into the friend zone and expected me to just be cool with it. I wrote her nearly 2 pages last night...to which I got back 2 sentences. She just doesn't care.

 

It bothers me that I went so far for this girl. I learned my lesson long ago and told myself "never again." But she was always that one exception for me. A part of me always wanted her to be "the one" - and the day she told me she loved me, I thought it was a dream come true.

 

About 11 days ago when she called me - she told me "I don't know why I said that to you....I never really felt that way" - Wow. If you listen to "Wicked Game" that pretty much sums up my feelings. How could she get me to believe her, get me to go so far for her...for us...and then just walk away like it never happened.

 

She even had the balls to start talking to me about some other guy she's interested in when she called me (but she wasn't going to pursue him for a month...because she needed a break). Seriously!??!?!?

 

I feel used. The borderline girl used me for sex and pretended to be interested in something more with me (she really did, she even admitted to it because the first night it was just "so damn good."). This girl used me because she wasn't over her ex....and I happened to remind her a bit of her ex....and she knew her parents would never accept me, even if I converted (because I'm white)....and she was kind of timid about me anyways because she was worried what people would think of her for being with a white guy....but she's thankful for what I gave her.

 

I feel completely mind ****ed.

 

Completely mind ****ed.

 

I told her to never ****ing call, text, msg, etc me ever again. She's dead to me. I ****ing hate what she did....and I hate myself for trusting her.

 

**** everyone

wilsonx Established Member

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hahaha @ BPD girl using you for sex because shes not over ex. Have you ever been your own rebound with a BPD girl. Stay away from them. These are the true GIGS girls. This is why you can't trust anything they say.

 

Im sorry confused but when it rains it pours apparently

betterdeal Established Member

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Good thread title - it does sound like you are indeed trying to f*ck everyone. Don't get to hung up on this one. You fell for her pitch, then she changed her story. Fickle. Move on. It happens. Have fun.

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