Can't let go...

[Baby Blue Eyes]

I cannot let go of my first love. I broke it off with him and he wouldn't get back together with me saying we needed space, but he'd always love me. Since then, He is with someone new and its been about ten months since we broke it off officially. Hes said some really hurtful things behind my back since the breakup and now after adjusting so i dont see him anymore, we're having no contact. It hurts... and I know deep down he still has SOME feelings for me whether they're bad or good, beacuse he reacts strangley when my name is brought up-and he talks about me still. Yesterday i backed out of my driveway and he was driving by my house- he had no reason to be near it since i live miles away from everyone he knows. I don't know ... He's on my mind... UGHHH----why can't i get over this?!!?! =( I miss his friendship ... I feel like It's all or nothing, and I hate it. HELP ME PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Baby Blue Eyes]

come on guys ... this is a bad day ... help me out here

[reggio]

It sounds like you have a void in your life and you are using these thoughts to fill the void.

 

You broke up with him 10 months ago, let him go. Get on with your life, you can start with thinking positive about yourself.

 

At this point you shouldn't be concerned with what he may feel towards you. Instead, think about what is important for you, let him go!

 

Pick yourself up, meet new people and be more productive.

[MESO]

This is just my opinion but i think if this is truly the way you feel and you are not just feeling lonely at the moment. Then you should come forward and tell him how you feel. you guys have been apart long enough for him to finally get a good idea of how he feels for you.

 

I just think if you really want him then at least tell him how you feel, then even if he says he doesnt feel that way anymore you can at least stop asking your self what if and move on with your life.