Glove_slap Posted July 25, 2011 Posted July 25, 2011 I grew up in project housing (still here at age 20) and about four years ago I started dating this girl from the suburbs (she's a year younger and we went to different schools). She was the most innocent thing in the world and I loved her for it, I treated her as something and someone I needed to protect in the world and I truly loved her dearly as she meant the world to me by the time I was 16. We were together for three years and I could tell things were slipping off the last few months we were together. She always had this friend that was boy crazy (she's a player) and she always tried to break us up by letting her meet new older guys with money and cars, etc. I guess in the end she was successful and while we broke up for our own internal reasons I feel like we still could have worked through it but 30 days after she broke up with me she started dating her current boy friend who is 2-3 years older than me. It's been over a year since we broke up and almost a year since they've been officially together, it turns out he's a drug trafficker/dealer in the suburb-uptown area and so is my ex's best friend (the girl who I assume hooked them both up). Her new boyfriend has his own condo, lots of cash, cars and pretty much gives her designer clothing and everything she's ever wanted while I a kid from the projects and I do admit I used to do criminal activity it was only for the sake of trying to find myself a higher quality of life, it seemed that when I left those years behind and finished high school and was accepted into University she lost interest in me because she might have felt as if her job of fixing me was completed. I always try to make sense of what happened to us that day because it always seems to trouble me even to this day. - We were each other's firsts, first loves and first times. We shared everything together but I guess that's the risk of teenage love because I didn't know it then but I was never the same person when I go to sleep as when I woke up, in other words I was always growing up and changing, learning and experiencing something new as was she. It was only natural that one day we'd grow apart from each other. The hardest thing for me to accept is that I could never hold her in my arms again, call her my little bunny, tell her how much she'll always mean to me and just hear her voice in the morning. I'm pretty much over her but it does trouble me sometimes, days like this I wonder to my self, "has is really been a year? did I really just get over all those depressing days and lonely nights? did any of this really happened? was I ever even in love?". No Contact for about 7 months, sorry for the essay.
Chi townD Posted July 25, 2011 Posted July 25, 2011 You need to forget her, dude. If her boyfriend is, in fact, a drug dealer. It won't be long until he's out of the picture. He's either gonna get caught or someone is gonna roll on him and she better hope she isn't around when the cops hit him, because she could get caught up in all his crap and have a hard time of things. Even end up doing a little time. wouldn't surprise me if he wasn't using her already. Who would suspect a cute innocent girl from the suburbs making a delivery of a kilo? You are doing the right thing by completing high school and now going to college. DO NOT LOOSE SIGHT OF THAT!!! There's tons of girls that would have a ton of respect from a guy that started out with nothing and had the drive and the passion to make something better of himself. To work hard and earn a college degree and start a carreer in his choosen field and making an HONEST living. Now, I'm a guy, but I'm sure more woman would find that more attractive than any drug dealer.
prospec Posted July 25, 2011 Posted July 25, 2011 100% agree with the above poster, her friends not a play her friends a gold digger. And shes just living a short lived relationship, from personal experience, drug dealers, hustlers what ever you wanna call them will be short lived. Its just the drama she probably likes but will phase out. Focus finish your education and get your fam out the projects man. you will look back and then think "dam did i care ..." and you will be feeling sweet.
Author Glove_slap Posted July 27, 2011 Author Posted July 27, 2011 Thanks guys, I really appreciate and completely understand what the both of you are talking about. The more I become busy with my life I find myself thinking about what happened between us less and less.
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