input required - nc 3 years

[listen_to_me_please]

a long time ago i dated a girl. the girl was having sex with someone else as well as acting extremely weird. i found out about the affair through her best friend whom informed me.

 

i broke up with the girl and it dragged out for about a month, since that time i had completely no contact with this ex for about 3 years.

 

i never stoped thinking about her, i think in my heart i still loved who she use to be toward me. about 7 months ago she and her other best friend sent me a friend request on fb, which i ignored for about 2 months and then i eventually accepted her, then she sent me a text something along the lines of "blah blah, blah" and i ended up asking for her phone number and i called her.

 

she gave me her office phone and then she said something about not having a cell phone which i thought was odd, in any event i called her and we chatted about nothing.

 

i then deleted her from fb and carried on. the problem is, i still check her fb profile even though we are not friends so i could look at her picture and i still think about her and i've been doing this the entire time after the split, even today still.

 

do i still have feelings toward this girl or am i crazy?

why did she re-establish contact? Doesn't she realize I am the type of person who will never accept that behavior? This situation is not good because I would marry that girl in a heart beat if the events that occurred never would have occured.

Edited July 25, 2011 by listen_to_me_please

[wilsonx]

do you still have feelings for her? curiosity killed the cat!

 

It honestly shouldn't matter why she contacted you... shrug it off and move forward

Just go back to NC... you will be fine... go on a bender or something to get your mind off it

[listen_to_me_please]

naw, i don't have any feelings for her, at least i don't think i do.

she kept me company though

 

i'm single now so i guess i'm missing the companionship

 

she use to be a nice person, its almost like its a matter of pride to never have any sort of communication with her, i personally don't hate her, her life, her choose to do whatever it is that she did, at the time it just annihilated me completely

 

i think at the time i thought we were going to be together for a long time once i fixed our relationship... who knew that, that girl was off fawking and sucking another man... not me!

 

hell, i didn't even know she could hurt me as much as she did.

Edited July 25, 2011 by listen_to_me_please

[listen_to_me_please]

I guess I'm trying to figure out or ask people with more experience than me and those who been through it if I moved pass this situation and where I am at now...