stressingit Posted July 22, 2011 Posted July 22, 2011 And maybe I'm over analyzing everything. I am 2 years divorced, 43, he is 4 years divorced 48. This is the very first relationship I have even attempted and maybe I'm still just not ready. We haven't even discussed "being in a relationship" other than the fact that he told me up front that he was "no good at relationships". He lets work get in the way and has ended 2 marriages because he "works too much". It seemed like a great arrangement as I submerge myself in work often as well. We were childhood friends and have a blast sharing old stories. We laugh, we talk, we just enjoy each other's company. Sex is unbelievable.... and I will emphasize.. unbelievable.... for both of us. (He verbalizes, I internalize). He is out of town 4 to 5 nights a week and has 2 adult children and his first grandchild... so I really don't get an opportunity to see him often. We've been doing this for 4 months. We initially exchanged emails on Facebook to catch up... He asked me to call him. I did. The phone calls were crazy for about a week, 3 and 4 per day, both from him and asking me to call him back. They tamed shortly after and have over all turned into one per week. We would often text 3 or 4 times a week.. just a quick hello, how are you.. an update of his whereabouts and when he expected to be home and usually a request to see me on a specific date if it "worked out". Meaning if he was actually home during human hours. There are also quick facebook comments or short emails thrown in there... but I'm beginning to be a little anxious about the contact. It seems to be fading. However our last conversations are all positive. Our last visit was a very emotional one.. he was very tired and just kind of spilled his guts about working too much and how he likes spending time with me and wishing he'd been around more for his kids. But sense that visit, it's just felt a little scarce. I only listened and consoled.... told him he was a good father, etc. His cell is broken "blank screen" so he can't really navigate through numbers or text. Bu the sent me a message on facebook to that effect mid week. Am I over thinking things. Is my wall just up. I feel like I'm ready to bolt but I also feel that I won't have to that he will probably just be done with me and move on shortly.... I hate that he makes me feel 15 again and has me wondering these things.... Sorry for being everywhere in this post... just trying to give enough detail for opinons and that's just how my mind is... EVERYWHERE..
Author stressingit Posted July 22, 2011 Author Posted July 22, 2011 maybe i posted in the wrong forum?
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