effee Posted April 25, 2004 Posted April 25, 2004 Yea, i guess most of you know that the girl i was seeing 2 timed me and got engaged to someone else..posted a thread about it awhile back, shouldntb e too hard to find it.. she cheated and lied to me, even after the breakup and said somethings which hurt me alot..(told me to F off and stuff like you were never in my heart) well i just want all of you guys who gave me support, that i'm getting by okay..it still hurts like hell sometimes, especially at night when im sitting alone, i still think of her sometimes and just feel like breaking down.. I'm still getting used to not checking her roster ( we work in the same place) trying not to but i still cant help but take a peek to see if she's working.. so anyway, just want to let you guys know, i'm getting over it, slowly, it doesnt hurt as much as it used to do 2 weeks ago, but it still does..i guess i will get over it in time to come, but its hard..i guess i will only truly get over her when i accept that she is gone for good, but somehow a part of me still doesnt want to believe it, and i keep hoping someday she will text me or call me, its to the point where i fall asleep sometimes with my cell in my hand just hoping for some word of her.. but no, i guess she wont, and im probably right..but still, just cant give up hope i guess.. well, i heard she brought her boyfriend/fiance to work the other day,(he sent her to work) i wasnt on during that time, wouldnt know what would happen if i saw them together, part of me just wants to beat the **** out of the motherfu*k (i might lose the fight, and probably my job as well) but part of me just wants to let it slide, i mean, i keep telling myself that this girl is not worth so much trouble..but still, just feel so angry that i just need a outlet to let it all out..it'll probably mean that she'll hate me for the rest of her life tho.. sigh..i just wish all this never happened, i never found out, blissfully ignorant of what was going on, i might just choose that actually if i knew what heartache it would mean.. well just an update..you guys probably wont care anyway, but ya, just thought i'd share my thoughts and what im feeling.
sportsloving Posted April 25, 2004 Posted April 25, 2004 I am sorry for the pain you are going through. You can only take it day by day and before you realize it, you are letting it go a little more every day. If you really need a release for your hurt and anger, try taking it out on something that wouldn't fight back... mow the yard, take a walk, play a game, do something that will allow you keep yourself occupied. I wish you the best~
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