indicolite Posted April 24, 2004 Posted April 24, 2004 it was two years ago but a horrible breakup due to the cheating and me finding out about it, with him then quickly moving out, moving the girl in to his new place from another state, and they both end up at getting jobs at my workplace. large company but it was hard knowing they were there. it was financial i am sure, not because they really wanted to bother me, but i they knew better. anyway, the girl was a total drama queen and kept calling me to attack or to be friendly when she was mad at him. i was in such turmoil and really wished the both of them the worst fate. so in a downturn, they quit or get laid off and moved to another city....but i still find myself wondering if they screwed each other over too. in an evil way i really want the worst for him especially--but why? i know it was over before this ever happened (he was in a seasonal job where he was away for months--that's where he met her). i do truly know i am not in love nor would want to be with him ever again but i feel this sense of wanting to win and in someway getting closure to the chapter. is this abnormal. i mean it's been 2 years and i am so nosey about the wrong things here. i know it should not matter.
spencer Posted April 25, 2004 Posted April 25, 2004 Originally posted by indicolite ..but i still find myself wondering if they screwed each other over too. of course they did, thats the MO Originally posted by indicolite in an evil way i really want the worst for him especially--but why? i. because he hurt you.
brashgal Posted April 25, 2004 Posted April 25, 2004 I'm struggling with this right now, keep hoping that my ex will screw around on his gf (who was the other woman). I know this is not healthy and I'm working toward the day when I just don't care what he does any more. Think about it, if you found out they did screw each other over, would that be the end of it? Would you feel better? Or would you feel worse if you found they were still together and deliriously happy? I think in the end, all you can do is learn from it and move on to making your future relationships better.
Author indicolite Posted April 25, 2004 Author Posted April 25, 2004 thanks you guys. i suppose it does make me feel worse when i know they live in the same town and she has not moved out of state and back. if i found out that it did not work, that they cheated on each other or were living in misery and poverty, or separately, i would be so happy (twisted as that is..to rcv any joy from others' pain, but this girl stalked me for the longest time and he would not leave me alone either, wanting us to be good "friends"; then when he did leave me alone i was curious). oh and the background is we had 6 years, maybe 3-4 of it long distance at the beginning where we would spend about 3 months a year living together. then towards the 5th-6th year, he moved in for good, we lived together in my house and talked marriage. thank god we were not married and i kept all my assets (but that is another story--how i found out he signed over some of his paychecks to her). at least i no longer have his passwords, contact with his friends, etc for a year..or i know i would be checking up on things!! the internet is dangerous though--i could always look up the current addresses and phone numbers which is so tempting. in the end i know i need to not care---it's not as if i don't have close "other" relationships, with family and friends...i should call it what it is...bitterness? vengeance? most likely a validation that kharma exists? i need to believe that it does or my whole essence of "being " is out the window.
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