Yona88 Posted July 17, 2011 Posted July 17, 2011 So yesterday I did really well. I was feeling pretty upbeat and optimistic? I did things I never felt I was able to do with my ex living with me. Blaring music I love, chatting with my webcam in random chatrooms on tinychat, leaving the house to go for a walk... I didn't feel like this over the shoulder feeling my ex gave me, where I had to be cautious with what I was doing on the computer. I realize, he's NOT in this apartment with me anymore, I can do whatever I please! I'm still healing. It's only been 12 days, but as a 23 year old girl, I am kind of starting to like this. I forced myself to meet some locals here in Idaho today. This guy.. named Orey I started talking to. I joined his game he was playing on Steam (it's a community where you can IM people, and join their games) and conversed with him a little bit. I am still going to stay completely away from men emotionally, but it does feel good to meet new people. So I don't have this sense of "he was the only one for me! :(" So there has been some good and bad the last couple days. I still feel panicky in the mornings... but I have this new sense of freedom that feels scary, but not bad.
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