Screwed up

[turtle32]

THis would be so long if i told u everything maybe i will this weekend i will make it short but i need help. me and the lady have been had this special bond for long time just recently we started dating she said she cared so much for me just last wek we spent the day and night to gether and we made love for the first time the next day i got worried i might got her pregnant and kinda freaked just said i was worried and all that she was nice the next day and the next three days talked like always but said she felt different after how i reacted and got distant the next few days wouldnt talk much just said she didnt want to get hurt so she was holkding back her expressing her feelings towards me. Well then this week someone told me she was at walmart with her ex but she had told me her kids really liked him but that she didnt like him well i paniced again and sent a pretty mean text and she shot back a mean one to me i know i hurt her feelings, i sent a few more text not mean ones just ones trying to explain why i reacted as i did about wrrying about pregnant. telling her how much she means to me anyway i apologized by letter on me acting stuoid and sending mean text was out of my hurt but she will not respond i havent heard anything, I feel she hates me and is so mad , i dont want that i only want her to be happy if she dont want me and wants her ex or what ever i just feel i have messed everything up by panicing and sending text and all that , what should i do i havent said nothing to her in two days should i just leave it alone? Is she thinking about me women let me know i mean she really cared for me, does women still care if you are mad or feel like u hate someone for acting like a jerk? And why would me being worried that i might have got her pregnant cause her to feel differnt she said it changed everything? Please help me i need some guidance so i dont screw up more then i have? Also how would u guys handle tghis ? what is my best course of action? Thanks oh she said she wasnt with her ex she has been honest with me i just jumpd to conclusion and spouted off my mouth.