Nohbody Posted July 15, 2011 Posted July 15, 2011 What do you say to someone who tells you they do not want a life with you? That they've chosen someone else over you, a new life in a faraway place free of worry and care loaded with cheap drink and food and all the things you couldn't give them? How do you look at yourself in the mirror and not see some kind of ogre, a monster that was apparently holding the person you love back from having the life they really wanted? How can you promise someone you are trying to fix what the war did to you after they tell you "it's just not worth it anymore". You aren't worth it anymore. You are equated with your problems. I don't like feeling sorry for myself, and I don't like complaining on here that much... but tonight I feel like something of a monster. Maybe she really is better off without me... and maybe all I can do is just pick up the pieces... or disappear.
Author Nohbody Posted July 15, 2011 Author Posted July 15, 2011 and it all happens via email. of course.
giuliano-3 Posted July 15, 2011 Posted July 15, 2011 Not to make light of your situation, but at least you got an email. I got the memo secondhand from my ex's mom. You seem very human to me, man. This world can be cruel, it can push you to the brink of sanity and reason. It can also be a wondrous place filled with incredible people and boundless opportunity. You choose.
giuliano-3 Posted July 15, 2011 Posted July 15, 2011 Hey, wait...aren't you the one who was going to go on some amazing trek through Utah? How was it?
Author Nohbody Posted July 15, 2011 Author Posted July 15, 2011 185 miles in 28 days. 27 miles in the last day - done in shower shoes (flip flops - on account of blisters) tied to my feet with paracord. It wasn't fun, but it was pretty fantastic. I think I'll be heading back out as soon as the open sores on my feet heal.
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