AlisaMarie Posted July 14, 2011 Posted July 14, 2011 Well, after 10 days of NC, the ex and his sick little circle pattern with me called and played some mind games. I am not going to get into detail, but as much of an angel I was to him and his child, he had me almost believing that the demise of our relationship wasthat I didn't love him enough and he felt it every day. I put him on the backburner and I am selfish and only love myself. OMG! Everything he said to me were things by right I should have said to him... but didn't. I said fine, I'll take the blame if it lifts some of your guilt. Oh, by the way, he left me for the same girl that was causing us trouble for half of our relationship... or was SHE causing the trouble? Anyway... 3 days I danced around his stupidity and broke down and confessed my love (as did he... first) and you know what? I felt worse than I ever did with him. Now I am on day three- and I am going to stop counting because it's wasting precious time in my mind. So... I feel great! Happy! Not bitter... and I may even start dating again. He and I were over before we even started. The point is- I am over it. I am moving on and done worrying about him and his stupid new relationship. That girl thinks she has a prize, but narcissism has no exceptions.
wilsonx Posted July 14, 2011 Posted July 14, 2011 Well, after 10 days of NC, the ex and his sick little circle pattern with me called and played some mind games. I am not going to get into detail, but as much of an angel I was to him and his child, he had me almost believing that the demise of our relationship wasthat I didn't love him enough and he felt it every day. I put him on the backburner and I am selfish and only love myself. OMG! Everything he said to me were things by right I should have said to him... Ok.. what he told you was a projection of his own insecurities. You said you were going to say the same things about him. Guess what you do not have to, he knows it already. He was projecting his insecurities of himself on you. =) So now you know this for future conversations with future ex's
Author AlisaMarie Posted July 14, 2011 Author Posted July 14, 2011 Ok.. what he told you was a projection of his own insecurities. You said you were going to say the same things about him. Guess what you do not have to, he knows it already. He was projecting his insecurities of himself on you. =) So now you know this for future conversations with future ex's Wilsonx- you know what doesn't mix? A co-dependent girl and a narcissistic boy. When we first got together and I didn't understand his condition, I just thought he was being a dick. But the patterns and cycles and the seeing one's self as so unique (like stupid life problems are the end of the world).. not being able to cope with simple life experiences (having a call dropped in a dead zone) and telling someone who WORSHIPS you that they never loved you. And then... do it again, and again, and again. I used to try to defend myself but now I just agree with him and tell him that I am a twat and horrible person. I tell him he doesn't deserve me and he's better off without me. LOL, the only good that does is stops the circle of me defending myself. I know he knows the truth. His guilt outweighs the truth.
wilsonx Posted July 14, 2011 Posted July 14, 2011 Awww, actually I had never dated a co-dependent girl in my life until my ex. Rest assured it wont ever happen again. Sorry Alisa =)
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