SugarLily Posted July 12, 2011 Posted July 12, 2011 So, I wrote a pretty nasty letter to my ex in my last post . . . But now, 2 days later, it is becomming pretty apparent that I didn't really mean it, because I still love the guy. And i'm terrified that I always will. We have been together for over 2 years (we met when we were 19), and broke up about 10 days ago. He left me - but I take responsibility for my contribution to the break up. We didn't break up over anything awful (nobody cheated etc.) - we just argued alot. There were some underlying issues which came out in petty arguments. I've never been 'dependent' on a guy before - and if this was any other guy, I wouldn't feel this way. But I just can't let go completely. I haven't contacted him since he left me. But he text me drunk at 2 am on a few days back telling me that he 'missed me'. I didn't reply. NC is the only thing keeping me strong. I'm too proud to ever go back to him - but a huge part of me is still hoping that he will turn up at my house in the next few weeks and want me back. As people, we work so well together. Our relationship needed work, but our personalities were perfect together. He makes me laugh like nobody else. I really miss him. I'm not going back - he left me. But should I completely let go of the idea that he might come back? I'm still totally in love with this guy. I don't want anybody else. x
Rory12345 Posted July 12, 2011 Posted July 12, 2011 SugarLily, Feelings don't go in days, it can take months or even years. It's natural to still have feelings for him and there are days where it will be more intense (like today) but at the moment you need to stay in NC. (From experience, I had days when I felt like this and at points I would text my ex and just feel worse.) Just look after yourself. I know it's easier said then done but try not to think about him. Build yourself as a person - you spent two years with someone so you need to start to learn what YOU want and what YOU like to do. Explore the world. Take up a hobby. Keep yourself busy. I myself have started playing the guitar and piano. Take it step by step and eventually you'll start to let go. Like feelings, you just don't wake up one day and let go. Time is the key to it all. If he doesn't come back it means it wasn't meant to be. It would be best to let go of the idea of him coming back because otherwise you won't get over him. You split up because it wasn't working, remember that. Cheers, Rory
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