VELVET21 Posted July 8, 2011 Posted July 8, 2011 Day 2 of NC started, i dont even know if its worth it to see it as NC because he just blocked me from everything, i think he even block my email, yeah i know hes a dbag immature d*ck. I cant help feeling rejected and worthless after too much 'i love you' /ur my everything' that i actually believed, this is how he treats me now. Pretending i never exist. Hes ok i know, cuz till yesterday i had a fake facebook (I DELETED IT NOW) so i could know about him....it hurts...he was making plans for the weekend hes off work today,changed profile pictures,adding girls. Now i really dont have anyway to know about him, and i keep waiting for an email that will never come. i cant help myself from cheking my email every morning...yeah ive become that crazy... And i keep thinking what if he never calls/text/email...im wasting my time feeling like crap felling sorry for myself ...right now im saying 'i wish i never meet him' which is BS... how can someone be so cold and heartless, how could i let myself be in this situation...
AlisaMarie Posted July 8, 2011 Posted July 8, 2011 I understand... and FB is the DEATH OF US! I am glad you deleted your fake account. What happened between you and your ex? NC is awful, but it's even worse if either parties breaks it. I feel like me and my ex just broke up again. Now I know more about him, the girl he's been spending time with, and she's replacing me. I wouldn't have known had I just stayed in NC. The 2 hour conversation can be summed up to this: Him: I miss you... how can we do this and be together. Me: I miss you too... (then goes through suggestions) Him: Let me call you back I feel sick. Him: Calls back... I can't do this anymore. We tried so many times it's never going to work. I want you out of my life forever. Ummm... he called me?? He missed me? And he's with someone else and just wanted to make sure I'd still be there. NICE. So when you feel like breaking NC ... think about how 100% of LS members feel after the fact. Sorry I ranted, I needed a vent too.
Author VELVET21 Posted July 8, 2011 Author Posted July 8, 2011 I understand... and FB is the DEATH OF US! I am glad you deleted your fake account. What happened between you and your ex? NC is awful, but it's even worse if either parties breaks it. I feel like me and my ex just broke up again. Now I know more about him, the girl he's been spending time with, and she's replacing me. I wouldn't have known had I just stayed in NC. The 2 hour conversation can be summed up to this: Him: I miss you... how can we do this and be together. Me: I miss you too... (then goes through suggestions) Him: Let me call you back I feel sick. Him: Calls back... I can't do this anymore. We tried so many times it's never going to work. I want you out of my life forever. Ummm... he called me?? He missed me? And he's with someone else and just wanted to make sure I'd still be there. NICE. So when you feel like breaking NC ... think about how 100% of LS members feel after the fact. Sorry I ranted, I needed a vent too. Long story short...it was a LDR,he missedmy birthday so i talked to him, never meantfor us to break up..kjust told him i love him and i wish we could spend more time togetheri know it was hard for him to come but it was like we life in differentcountries so i told him i didnt mind going to see him even for a lil while....he ignore me the whole weekend and on monday i saw an email!!! saying pretty much this i love you soo much im sorry i hurt you i know i seem like the worst boyfriend so i think its best to fgo our own ways...then he blocked me from everything... i kept texting calling emailing he just text "what we had was real i was playing with you please dont make this harder" and thats it. I think some guys really dont know what they want, i guess your right by keeping NC im saving myself a lot disapointment and sooner or later i will forget. it just hurts that ill probably never hear from him again
Mack05 Posted July 8, 2011 Posted July 8, 2011 Day 2 of NC started, i dont even know if its worth it to see it as NC because he just blocked me from everything, i think he even block my email, yeah i know hes a dbag immature d*ck. I cant help feeling rejected and worthless after too much 'i love you' /ur my everything' that i actually believed, this is how he treats me now. Pretending i never exist. Hes ok i know, cuz till yesterday i had a fake facebook (I DELETED IT NOW) so i could know about him....it hurts...he was making plans for the weekend hes off work today,changed profile pictures,adding girls. Now i really dont have anyway to know about him, and i keep waiting for an email that will never come. i cant help myself from cheking my email every morning...yeah ive become that crazy... And i keep thinking what if he never calls/text/email...im wasting my time feeling like crap felling sorry for myself ...right now im saying 'i wish i never meet him' which is BS... how can someone be so cold and heartless, how could i let myself be in this situation... Sadly Velvet no matter what advice you get on here, you will constantly over analyze and obsess about everything. The good times, The hard times, The Bad times, The funny times. You are still in shock, still numb. When this wears off and you start feeling other emotions, you are going to be in a constant battle not to break NC..You have so many unanswered questions. You will remember the good side of him and then wonder how the hell can he be so cold and so cruel. This is such a tough time Velvet, I will not even try to kid you. Use your support network (family and friends) and this site to cope. I had no idea how amazing this site would be on my own personal recovery. Some posters here I almost consider friends now.. I trust them totally. No one judges you, just people here supporting each other. You will get various idea's here on the correct ways to grieve/heal and then eventually forgive and move on. Take your time. No one likes to have to deal with pain. Its a very uncomfortable process but you have to go through it and not avoid it.
Author VELVET21 Posted July 8, 2011 Author Posted July 8, 2011 Sadly Velvet no matter what advice you get on here, you will constantly over analyze and obsess about everything. The good times, The hard times, The Bad times, The funny times. You are still in shock, still numb. When this wears off and you start feeling other emotions, you are going to be in a constant battle not to break NC..You have so many unanswered questions. You will remember the good side of him and then wonder how the hell can he be so cold and so cruel. This is such a tough time Velvet, I will not even try to kid you. Use your support network (family and friends) and this site to cope. I had no idea how amazing this site would be on my own personal recovery. Some posters here I almost consider friends now.. I trust them totally. No one judges you, just people here supporting each other. You will get various idea's here on the correct ways to grieve/heal and then eventually forgive and move on. Take your time. No one likes to have to deal with pain. Its a very uncomfortable process but you have to go through it and not avoid it. Thats exactly what im doing now, i keep thinking what if i said something different, what if i didnt say anything at all we would still be together now. Im over analizing everything. i really like this site its been helping a lot, my friends and family are just saying" youll find someone better" "im glad its over you can do better" They just dont understand how important he was for me i cant just pretend he didnt exist, it amaze me how he can tho.. Thanks mack for ur post
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