Magnum Posted July 8, 2011 Posted July 8, 2011 So, things have certainly been rough the past few months. I guess you could say life hasn't always been easy, but I feel like I've hit the landslide. Growing up, I went to a private school where I made friends and eventually lost them because I'm gay and they were against it. Kept them for 6 years, so it was like starting over when I came out. I got kicked out of the high school a year later and then transferred to a public school. Now I have a few close friends and all and everything seems to be okay in the friendship department. The one thing I've been really looking for in my life is a partner to just share some magic moments with. My first relationship lasted 3 months and it never really clicked. It was a whole month without him replying back and then my best friend tells me that the kid was hitting on him too. So ... I've been pretty skeptical about relationships. I learned some lessons from a first relationship ... like most people do. Over the past couple of years, however, I ran into people that pissed me off a ton. I got people that only care about sex and don't even want a friendship, I got some that have already abused me mentally and physically, and I just find the wrong folks in general. I'm not sure what I should do. Some of these people are going to transfer to the college that I plan to head to. Will be a drag to see them again ... and I know some encounters will likely involve fists flying. Well, I'm currently looking for a job and trying to set up plans for the near future. I would love to share an apartment with a friend somewhere far from my parents. These people don't even remember making payments when they balance their checkbooks and that scares me. I love them both but I can't handle them at all. A part of me would love to move out ... but with what money? Sorry if I sound a bit pessimistic but I'm looking for advice. I transfer colleges in the spring of next year so I have some time to think things over. Probably best to put my education first in this case and think about love later. I would just want to find a decent guy, but how can I? ... I still got the people from the past bothering me all the time. My ex messages me on another site and says "you shouldn't put 'Magnum' as your screen name because people will think you have a big penis when you really don't". Here am I thinking, why the hell do you want to bother me after 3 years of not talking to me.
the happiness Posted July 12, 2011 Posted July 12, 2011 i think that you have to change the way which you are dealing people with,and you have to know that as long as you have a strong desire i think you will defeat the impossibility.and try to think positively as much as you can....i dont have a magic recipe which can help you in your case but what i can say is you must love to be loved..........thank you fo sharing your story with us
Author Magnum Posted July 17, 2011 Author Posted July 17, 2011 i think that you have to change the way which you are dealing people with,and you have to know that as long as you have a strong desire i think you will defeat the impossibility.and try to think positively as much as you can....i dont have a magic recipe which can help you in your case but what i can say is you must love to be loved..........thank you fo sharing your story with us Love to be loved? Well ... I do like being loved.
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