I dont even know how to feel about it :(

[VELVET21]

soo, its been 5 day since he broke up with me ( email) and 3 days since he completly blocked me from fb,aim wont answer one calls nothing..and only 1 day of NC..i emailed him yesterday some sort of goodbye email...still waitin for an answer which i know will never come.

 

im being so bipolar now...woke up feeling like sh*t missing him sooo much thinking about going to see him so he has the guts to break up with me face to face....then a had a mayor meltdown start crying thinkin i probably will never see him again and that the loved he told me he felt and how i was his everything were just BS (which make me feel even worst)

 

now im soooo angry at him i mean he could even dignify me with a call and wen i begged him to with me the chance to talk if what we had was real then he should at least give us the chance to talkhe said "what we had was real i wqas playing i love you sooooo much dont make this harder than it is"...and thats it

 

i mean if you love someone your suppose to work things out..he wont even meet me halfway. he took me for granted and then dump me

 

i feel like this areover but still want to see him and talkto him id rather he been brutaly honest than this...cant get over him...shouldi try go see him? i cant find a way to ease this feeling

[nikkinicole36]

From personal experience, even if you go to see him you are not likely to get straight and direct answers. You'll only wind up with more questions that have no answers either. I thought the same as you, if I could just get him to talk to me face to face and explain what the hell was going on.... I'm not even sure if he has the answers. It hurts so much right now I know. I'm so sorry you are in so much pain. It is literally a death.

 

 

I am reading a book right now called The Journey from Abandoment to Healing by Susan Anderson that is absolutely wonderful. It is giving me clarity on the process you are now currently going through that I too went through.