i think i have no alternative but go into therapy

[childishregrets]

i think im having a breakdown people and its not the first time either, i had one when me and my ex split and it ruined me for a good 4 years.a part of me wanted to date but i was just walking around with a huge hole and bitterness and i guess people picked up on that and the fact i think ive lost myself as a person, i used to be decent looking sarcastic and witty and even had a part time job when i was with my ex and now im just silent and uncomfortable and severly underweight.

 

i hate those meds, i aint ever taken them at all but im supposed to be, i havent confided in anyone EVER as i dont have guy friends who are like that and my story would be so pathetic i could never look them in the eye again.my parents are emotional retards and im overly sensitive and i dont know if im comfortable with therapy at all...my ex hasnt contacted me ever.....no one has ever said to me do you need to talk about things? actually 1 girl asked me was it drugs. she's a cousin of my ex and is really sweet but apart from that ive been basically getting semi wasted every night for the past couple of years to mask the pain and watching life pass me by.

 

im not even 100% comfortable talking on here about how long its been and about all the things that have happened and there has been multiple events.each one crushing me more and taking me out of the dating game.

 

im in my late 20's and its going to take a year to get sorted before i know it im going to be single and 30 and with no career and will have lost contact with all my old friends and groups

 

OMG panic attack over that,its getting pretty unbearable now it hasnt been like this in a long time, infact i feel as bad as i did when i first got my heart broke

Edited July 7, 2011 by childishregrets

[denise_xo]

Hi there,

My main recommendation would be draw on any and every resource you can to get better. I've built myself up from various bottomless holes, and I've used whatever tools I can to help me - counseling, medication, exercise, therapy, healthy diet, no alcohol - whatever works for you, but make use of everything available so you can get yourself out of your mess. Good luck.

[CaringGuidance]

I agree with denise_xo. I also want to add that, if you feel therapy is needed, maybe you should at least give it a try. There are great therapists out there who are very good at what they do and can help.

 

Also, try to make friends if you can. It's always good to have people in our lives to talk to and be there to support us at times when we need it.

 

It's important that you do whatever it takes to help yourself and get to where you want to be in life and to be happy. Love yourself, take care of yourself and never stop doing so.

 

Good luck & God Bless you.

[User Named]

Why aren't you taking the meds? You say you hate them. What do you hate more--feeling the way you do or taking a few pills? You have a responsibility to yourself and everyone around you to get better. TAKE THE MEDS.