ShiningEyes Posted July 4, 2011 Posted July 4, 2011 I know that I have an addictive personality. The object of my addiction will shift over time - from alcohol to pot to sex to people, etc. Right now I am feeling addicted to certain emotions. Does this make sense? I am feeling addicted to feelings of victimization, to paranoid feelings, to "investigating" my partner's personal life/belongings, to feelings of betrayal... It's maddening and exhausting. Can anyone relate?
robaday Posted July 4, 2011 Posted July 4, 2011 Hi, I can totally relate, I also have an addictive personality. It started with alcohol at 12 years old, cannabis at 14, ecstacy by 15 and heavier consumption into my early twenties, then what i call the cocaine years (3 or so). My relationships have been the same. I become addicted to women, i know sometimes its not love but something else. And emotions especially - repeating conversations repeatedly in my head, negative intrusive thoughts, rage when my inner depression snaps. I cope through exercise, setting myself higher targets every day, I cope by going out drinking later than the midday starts i used to do, i cope by living in an area where drugs are not easy to obtain. Have you thought of spending sometime single and away from the party lifestyle? Ive quit alcohol three times in my life (once for a year) and it gave me immense clarity and inner strength.
Author ShiningEyes Posted July 5, 2011 Author Posted July 5, 2011 Hi - We have a lot in common. Yes, I actually a few years ago I moved to different state and went to grad school just to get away from bad influences, drug use, partying etc. It paid off, I am healthier and got a degree in the process. My addictions today are purely emotional (in my head?). ANd they are affecting my well-being and possibly my relationship.
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