AlisaMarie Posted July 2, 2011 Posted July 2, 2011 It's been 2 weeks today since the breakup- and would have been 2 weeks NC but he broke it and pushed so far that I had to respond. Then he did a drive by the other day and I saw his beautiful eyes through my car window... I wanted to talk- but some strange force told me to keep driving (I was in my car pulling up at home as he was coming down my street). I am just trying to cope. I miss him, I don't know why but I do. As much as we all hate our exes right now, I still remember the good.. .and that makes me sad... and the bad.. and that makes me even more sad. A group of friends are going out tonight. I am really not feeling it. I am just not up for it- but I have to. Can't shake the thoughts of what he is doing... or who. lol ahhhh!
geegirl Posted July 2, 2011 Posted July 2, 2011 Remembering the good always gets me down. But there was also the bad. Unfortunately it's hard sometimes not to romanticize but it's normal. We miss that part of them. But we deserve that whole f'n loaf of bread and not pieces of it or breadcrumbs. Go out with your friends. Don't stay home and mope. Control the alcohol! No, drunk texting or calling!
HeartOfAPhoenix Posted July 2, 2011 Posted July 2, 2011 Geegirl is right. reminisce on the past, plan for the future, and live in the present.
Author AlisaMarie Posted July 2, 2011 Author Posted July 2, 2011 Geegirl is right. reminisce on the past, plan for the future, and live in the present. Thanks... Don't worry geegirly- I don't do that. I am so stubborn with NC. and phoenix, you're correct. I just have a hard time letting go.
thelovingkind Posted July 2, 2011 Posted July 2, 2011 I totally know that feeling of trying to live for yourself, go out with friends etc., not worry about what he's doing, and yet try as you might you just can't stop wondering. It's a really tough time. But you should be glad it's not easy. I've had one break up that was a total breeze to let go of, and it's the one relationship I regret the most, because the fact that I didn't shed a tear shows how much I was wasting my time. The more I cry, the better I feel, because that's my mind telling me that yeah, you're building things with your life that matter. If you lose something and you cry about it, that's a pretty good sign that you've invested yourself in something that means something to you, and isn't that what we're all trying to do with our lives? After my last break up I cried on about twenty different occasions. I don't think my ex cried once. His loss, not mine.
Author AlisaMarie Posted July 2, 2011 Author Posted July 2, 2011 I totally know that feeling of trying to live for yourself, go out with friends etc., not worry about what he's doing, and yet try as you might you just can't stop wondering. It's a really tough time. But you should be glad it's not easy. I've had one break up that was a total breeze to let go of, and it's the one relationship I regret the most, because the fact that I didn't shed a tear shows how much I was wasting my time. The more I cry, the better I feel, because that's my mind telling me that yeah, you're building things with your life that matter. If you lose something and you cry about it, that's a pretty good sign that you've invested yourself in something that means something to you, and isn't that what we're all trying to do with our lives? After my last break up I cried on about twenty different occasions. I don't think my ex cried once. His loss, not mine. Lovingkind- that was beautifully interesting how you put it! You're right... I didn't waste my time. I cared deeply and spent much of my time for him loving his son as well. If I weren't in the picture- maybe his son would have lacked the care that I gave him. There had to be a reason for the relationship and a purpose for its demise. I am not going to sit here and say bigger better things await me- I may be in turmoil for a long time to come. My heart is broken and I miss him and his baby deeply, but hopefully something better awaits them. </3
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