NSDNQ Posted June 30, 2011 Posted June 30, 2011 she's awsome. she values my time, always holds me close at night, never treats me like i'm stupid, even when I act like it. she's committed to the relationship, i trust her, and her family loves me. yet for some reason thats beyond me I feel the attracted to other women. realllly attracted. I really feel like a ****bag becuase of this. My last relationship I was cheated on 6 times before she dumped me in a txt TWICE. (cut me some slack it was my first serious relationship) I know how much that hurts and what that does to a person. the fact that i even have the desire to do that generates no small amount of self loathing on my part. the sex is like a 7 out of 10. she's very tight and i'm of above average endowment so it gets painfull for her sometimes, and she isnt very good at oral, but other then that its great. I'm satisfied when we finish, as is she. wish i could understand where this desire is coming from. this girl helped me pick up the peices of THAT THING that I was after the breakup. she deserves so much more then this.
OhMittens Posted June 30, 2011 Posted June 30, 2011 You might internally worried that the same thing could happen in this relationship and you want to have the power now.
SmileFace Posted June 30, 2011 Posted June 30, 2011 You know she deserves better, right? Then don't cheat on her. If you need to get your dick wet, have enough balls to break up with her and have fun .
Woggle Posted June 30, 2011 Posted June 30, 2011 It is a subconscious way of wanting to do it to her before she does it to you. If you can't be faithful then break up with her but don't drag an innocent person into this. She is not your ex and she did not cheat on you.
Author NSDNQ Posted June 30, 2011 Author Posted June 30, 2011 not going to act on these desires. just trying to understand them
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