Sirenita Posted June 29, 2011 Posted June 29, 2011 (edited) Ok, I dated this man back when I was 18 and he was 27. We dated for a few weeks, I was crazy infatuated with him. It was the beginning of first love for me. We had I horrible break up, because he found out something about me that made him upset. Even though he asked me for time, I begged and clinged..until he had enough..... 6yrs later...we became friends through facebook. We talked back and and forth, he seemed to have gotten over the reason why we broke up like 90%. He told me I was one of the most beautiful girls he has ever seen, and that he is attracted to me. Then we started messaging on the phone, even sexting...but I could tell he was not treating me at all like in the past (girlfriend material)..this was more like casual diversion for him. I kind of wanted more and faster, and started getting insecure (especially because of the past). Eventually I lashed out at him at something he said, and got a little mean, deleted him from FB. And even worse, drunk-texted him. Now he thinks I have not changed at all since we broke up. When I lashed out at him, he initially apologized, and told me that is the reason he is apprehensive about getting closer to me. But then he just broke off the contact, telling me that he decided to give me another chance, and I proved again I have no control over my emotions when it comes to him. That one time he is a FOOL, but twice he is a SUCKER. (he seemed upset) Unfortunately, he is right. And I am ashamed I didnt take it more casually. I regret doing things out of anger and frustration..but don't know how to convince him to give me the last chance. I have never felt an attraction as strong as like I did for this guy. And no man has ever sweptme off my feet like he did. But I pushed him away a second time with my actions...I don't want another 6yrs to go by for him to reconsider. I want to change right now, because my attitude and lashing out affects me in all relationships, only to later regret it. Right now I know I cant contact him or he will get annoyed, but how can I convice me to give me the last chance??? He tells me the fact is he is scared of me. And I doubt that even if he wants, he would initiate anything after my behaviour. Please advice me Edited June 29, 2011 by Sirenita
buster2209 Posted June 30, 2011 Posted June 30, 2011 It's hard to get someone to love you until you love yourself. You sound like you have a lot of personal stuff to work through. You can't do that with someone. You have to be brutally honest with who you are and why you do the things you do. You may not like the answers, but at least you will be aware of your behaviour and be able to do something about it.
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