latexyankee Posted June 28, 2011 Posted June 28, 2011 It pours. Why are all these unfortunate things happening while my mind and heart are in such distress? Why can I not find a minute of solace? It's been 2 weeks NC and I'm dying inside. Every second of every day is a struggle. I work in a field that requires me to be sociable on daily basis. (Cable-Satellite work). I can't fake it anymore, performance is dropping, and they cut my hours last week as well due to a slow period. So now that my income has been cut by 1/3, my vehicle broke down today and it seems it will take every penny I have to fix. So there I am walking home from the shop crying down the street like a little boy who has lost his mother. Everyday something is making things worse and it's taking it's toll on me. I just want to call, to hear her voice, to just hear her say she loves me one more time. I'm breaking down, fast
FeelingSmall Posted June 28, 2011 Posted June 28, 2011 I'm very sorry you're having a rough day, and it sounds as if rough doesn't begin to cover it... I know right now there doesn't seem to be light at the end of the tunnel but, trust me, things WILL get better. Maybe you need to have a really good cry. Get it all out, there's absolutely nothing wrong with that and it's very understandable considering what you've been going through. Watch a feel good movie and eat ice cream. Ice cream is my answer to all problems, sorry... Things will get better, it's going to take time. Stay strong, buddy Tomorrow is another day, and hopefully it will be brighter.
Geya Posted June 28, 2011 Posted June 28, 2011 I'm sorry this happened to you but it's in days like these that you grow stronger, hang in there because it's worth it, I promise you. Obviously the breakup has taken it's toll on you and it's normal, you'll get through it and everyday will get easier, you CAN get through this and every bad thing that happened is fixable. ((hugs))
Author latexyankee Posted June 28, 2011 Author Posted June 28, 2011 Thank you, it just feels as if everything is going to **** since she left. You know, I had confidence some money saved up(about 5k) work was good, I couldn't have been happier. Now I feel so tiny and insignificant all the sudden. i know this is an attack on my self-esteem created from myself, but it's getting me good. I've been reading all these books, telling me what great person I am blah blah....and it helps, but I am starting to mentally break down. I love that girl, it's times like these when we truly realize what one heart can mean to the other. Ughhhh stick a fork in me.
LovelyDaze Posted June 28, 2011 Posted June 28, 2011 It pours. Why are all these unfortunate things happening while my mind and heart are in such distress? Why can I not find a minute of solace? It's been 2 weeks NC and I'm dying inside. Every second of every day is a struggle. I work in a field that requires me to be sociable on daily basis. (Cable-Satellite work). I can't fake it anymore, performance is dropping, and they cut my hours last week as well due to a slow period. So now that my income has been cut by 1/3, my vehicle broke down today and it seems it will take every penny I have to fix. So there I am walking home from the shop crying down the street like a little boy who has lost his mother. Everyday something is making things worse and it's taking it's toll on me. I just want to call, to hear her voice, to just hear her say she loves me one more time. I'm breaking down, fast Every lousy thing you've just stated is a temporary setback. As you quoted, when it rains it pours.If you contact your ex for some minute form of solace, the rain will turn into a monsoon. Don't add a quick fix to your situation, especially one that may make your feelings worse. In this life until the last week of our life, something will occur that will be a load of dog crap. Life is never 100% good at one point throughout. We will have amazingly great days and other days that we wish the world will just give us a damn break already! Tread through this mudslide with all the strength you can muster. It is definitely in you DON'T GIVE UP! Avoid contacting the ex. You don't need more heartbroken pain anymore.
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