MandyC18 Posted June 27, 2011 Posted June 27, 2011 So here's an update from my previous sob story, "barely breathing with a broken heart" June 24th 2011, would have been my ex and I's 8month anniversary, key word...would. Past tense meaning we are still apart sadly. However a lot has happened since my last post. My ex and I had a fall out June 20th, it was pretty big but of course we never leave us on a bad note. I let him have it on facebook finally getting out what I've been wanting to say about him denying everything (getting back together) Anyways, i couldn't sleep that night knowing we had a fall out, its always hard. I texted him saying i cant sleep....but its only going to get better from here. Didn't hear from him that whole day but we needed space and time to cool down. It wasn't until the next morning i hear my phone go off around 10 and he texted saying "hey cant talk going to gym just wanted to say i miss u" i was shocked! Like he came to me? After this past fallout i figured i wouldnt hear from him in days. He then chatted me later that night and we had an okay conversation nothing to crazy he was a little short here and there and started asking about what guys have texted me and asked to hangout and such. I asked him the same thing but with girls. Of course he's still protective but atleast he still cares! good sign. (btw i ended the convo) So then the next day, i uploaded a new picture on fb and he was the first one to "like it" Shocked again! Was he trying to make contact with me? I forgot to mention i tried starting this no contact thing however i just wouldnt contact him first and other rules followed. It worked a little i mean i gave in a few times but nothing bad has come from that. Anyways he texted me later that day! We had a nice conversation as if nothing had happened. He was being really nice! So the conversation ended, but at midnight i texted him because it was the 24th (8month ani) and i told him i was missing him especially today. Wasnt expecting a response and of course so soon? He asked why today and i told him 8months ago from today you asked me to be your girlfriend, he then responded "lets go bowling on saturday (:" SAYYY WHAT?????! Did he just finally ask to hangout rather than me trying for the past month? The next day he chatted me on fb saying "i cant hangout i just remembered i have senior pics" oh great, i knew it was to good to be true...im not going to lie i was bummed and upset. I finally thought i would be able to actually hangout with him rather than our little "hook ups" So we didnt talk that whole day and then i gave in again and texted him" i miss you, hope you gad a good day today" I got lost in my thoughts and really missed him and us i had to contact him. Well i wasnt expecting a response and he responded...miss you too. So im on facebook here and there listening to sappy love songs watching the notebook videos ya ya ya. I see he gets on facebook chat, its pretty late 12 something already...and i thought about something i would regret asking but the worst he could say was no. So i asked if wanted to have another late night, i sent it, got out of the chat and waiting for an answer. So im as nervous as ever, then i realize the chat never went through so i sent it again. Once again, waited, nervous, and never got an answer? So i go onto the other computer to see if this chat was slow or something and then i see a chat from him! Both of mine never went through but he chatted me! A sign from god? i think so. So we get to chatting and the next thing you know im at his house. Its late who cares its summer and im young. We'll i get into his room and he hugs me as if he hasnt seen me in years<3 i melt but dont show it. Earlier in our convos we told me he rearranged his room so im looking around to see the changes, and my eyes go to his dressers and in my left hand back corner my eyes widen and heart skips a beat. I see everything i have made him for our ani's and the memory box during our break up all displayed. During our fallout the other night he told me he put away the memory box. It was all displayed and the memory box looked as if he had been through it. So more happens and i didnt leave to almost 3ish. We actually hungout, talked, laughed, joked around, a normal day with us it was great. We brought each other up to speed mostly him which is a good sign. I cant explain the feeling i had but everything felt so right. So its time for me to go, an we are in his garage, and he hugs/holds me for a little bit and tells me "you know i miss you right"....i held back tears because he finally said this to me in person. I paused and said yeah, i miss you too. Looked at him and kissed him goodnight. P.S today we talked for a little bit and he was still being super nice which is good! Anyways, did i finally make a break through! This boy has been telling me he misses me here and there and same with me, but for him to tell me in person says a lot. I havent brought up the relationship since the fallout and he finally released some of his feelings to me. Although some of you may think wow an i miss you? It really does say a lot because for once since our break up we have been on good terms and have had contact everyday via text, facebook, in person. I think we have started trying to make our way back up from rock bottom. I was seriously in shock to see all my things displayed...it meant so much. So i need some opinions here, what do you think? Is he gonna start trying now? Am i just making a big deal out of nothing? Or did i finally make a break through...
HeartOfAPhoenix Posted June 27, 2011 Posted June 27, 2011 Am i just making a big deal out of nothing? Or did i finally make a break through... everything seems to be good, I would just tread lightly from here on out. I wouldn't say you made a break through... well at least not until he mentions reconciliation. Pray for the best, Prepare for the worst.
Author MandyC18 Posted June 27, 2011 Author Posted June 27, 2011 yeah atleast we finally reached a nice spot after all the fallouts, no talking, talking stuff. Im hoping for the best!
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