Broke NC after 1 week =(

[justagirrl]

So mad at myself =/

 

I was doing so good, for a week. I saw on my news feed on facebook last week that my "ex" put up a flyer about a performance he's doing on june 25th. He wasn't getting much attention about it (likes or comments) which is normal because usually the only people he knows who show up are his mom, sister, and manager...

 

I was at a graduation party yesterday and was just in a really good mood...I texted him saying "hey, I saw you're performing tonight..have a good show."

 

he said " thanks! "

 

I didn't say anything after that...but I couldn't help it and I'm mad that I broke NC. I was at a party, having fun, and just started thinking about him

[Mr. Savage]

Yeah that sucks. I did the same awhile ago. Now you gotta start all over. At least it wasn't anything bad that was said.

[Forever Learning]

I know how you feel, I have done that in the past. It seems the times that are most difficult are when I am feeling sad or feeling happy. Not typically the in between times as much when I am busy or in a middle-of-the-road mood.

 

The texting when feeling happy thing is probably a matter of wishing things were back the way they were previously, and you were happy at that time - and so, being happy now, you want to share it again, as you had in the past.

 

Maybe next time you will reflect before sending the text and stop yourself from sending it. Difficult I know!

[justagirrl]

Ive noticed that when I'm happy I miss him a lot...because I never had anything to worry about. I had him...I had my friends...no worries. Now I don't...and I wish I did and that's why I have the urge to text him and share the feeling.

 

I surprised him at one of his performances before when we were together and he was really happy to see me and really appreciated me going...we're not on bad term right now, but I knew that would be inappropriate.

 

=( it's very difficult