archivist Posted June 24, 2011 Posted June 24, 2011 I can't believe how fast things have moved. 4 weeks ago we were in blissful love, we spent every moment we could together because she flys a lot for work. She told her family she could see herself moving in with me only rencently. 3 weeks ago she got drunk and kissed someone else whilst away (shes a flight attendant). 1 week ago she confessed, apologised and broke it off, just like that. She is young, and I guess does not know what she wants, this was a a problem before we got together, but she did choose me in the end. Now its come back to bite me in the ass. She just got back today and she deleted our pictures from Facebook and this really hurts. I know you're all going to tell me to delete her and I will if I get worse. I am strong and I will make it beyond this because I have fantastic friends and I've been through worse. The problem is I'm too ashamed to talk to them about it right now, I'm avoiding questions about her. I am confused, I was a mess last year and really couldn't function properly with the usual no sleep, appetite, concentration problems. But this time it has been mild, when I look at that old relationship it does not even come close to the one that has just ended. I can't explain why that is, perhaps I'm used to her being away for half of the month? Your thoughts appreciated on that. I thought I was handling this well until a few minutes ago. I was expecting her to come round as this was a complete 180 for her. I guess the reality is setting in and I'm starting to panic. I know how to cope and handle myself, I've been there before and NC made my previous ex come crawling back, but by then I didn't want her back. This girl is different (or at least right now) and I don't want this to end like the last relationship. I'm still clinging onto hope... Just wanted to vent as I haven't bought myself to talk to my friends yet.
Chi townD Posted June 24, 2011 Posted June 24, 2011 Okay dude, she broke up with you because she was a coward and didn't want to face up to what she's done. And by the way, I have a feeling that it was more than just kissing. You don't normally break up with someone just because they kissed someone else. Hell, most people would just hold that to themselves and never tell the other person. It was bad enough that she dumped you. Because, her guilt would probably eat away at her everytime she saw you. So, rather than tell you the truth, she just cut you out. Delete her from Facebook and lose her number. You deserve better.
2sunny Posted June 24, 2011 Posted June 24, 2011 i would never want to be with someone who displays such a blatant lack of character and values.
Author archivist Posted June 27, 2011 Author Posted June 27, 2011 I've been doing better recently, the past few days have spent a lot of time with friends. I went out last weekend and got trashed Friday and Saturday, its a good temporary feeling but woke up Sunday and realised i don't need to go all out. I've always been back and foupart with the partying, relationship, party, relationship. I'm comfortable in both situations but i know deep down partying is not going to last forever. I'm getting tired of this, I want to settle down. I had lunch with her cousin on Sunday, he thinks she just needs to work out for herself what she wants and maybe she will come around. Her mum called me tonight, she found out recently but didn't want to call me whilst my ex could hear. She kept apologising and is so upset with my ex that she won't talk to her. She says my ex has just stayed at home when shes back but she hasn't given her a decent explanation for breaking it off with me. She thinks i should chase her and make thingS right again.. She doesn't understand the situation and i didn't tell her. I just said shes going through a phase in her life and she needs to work out who she really is. I'm meeting another cousin of my ex for dinner later on in the week. She also tells me that she is acting irrational and just running away from everything. She said she doesn't even recognise her right now. She's just going to fly away and not have to face upto any responsibilities on this journey of self discovery. i just need to mend and try to move on, there is nothing i can do for my ex other then to leave her be. Maybe she will come round sometime but I'll probably have moved on by then, and that truly scares me. How crazy am i to think that? I've started to tell my friends and her family that it is over. I hate doing it, everyone is shocked and never saw that coming. My friends have quit their jobs to go on a 4 month backpacking trip. I had no desire to go whilst i was with my ex, but now that shes gone I'm looking forward to joining them. But i wont quit my job, it's a good job i also have the opportunity to transfer to another country which also sounds tempting. That was an idea from another family member of her. I'm so entwined within her family it's nuts!
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