Will she take me back?

[Forever Winter]

so to make a super long story short, I have been in a off and on relationship with this girl since we were 18, mostly on ( we are both 23 now) we have had many issues in the past but we have always worked them out. she moved to Cali a few years ago and we have been traveling back and forth seeing each other. last time I saw her was in January and things were good with is. we talked on the phone often. well a few months back some tragic things happened to her and she was forced to live in a shelter and she had no job anymore. when i found out i wanted to be there for her but I could not do anything because I was still in school (college) and I was a little low on cash. well communication was really hard between us and we ended up arguing and she was sooo stressed out she said she did not want to talk to me anymore and she needed space. i was angry at the time so i guess we took a small break. during out break i guess she met another guy. and after a few months of not talking to her I was beginning to miss her and i called her (i called her about a week ago) when she answered she told me she had a new boyfriend, ( my dates may be off but she was with him for 3 months). i literally died inside, it hurt me sooo much, until yesterday I texted her my feeling and that i wanted her back and she called me. we talked a little bit and she told me she dumped the guy was dating, ( because he was racist) and i asked her if she loved him and she said no, although she admit that she had sex with him, that also killed me inside. anyways I asked her if she could call me last night and she did. I spilled my guts to her telling her how i felt and that I wanted her back. she had so mixed emotions, she also told me that her ex is also trying to get back with her too. there is a small chance I might see her next month at a native American ceremony where i live. ( we are both native american) I told her she can come stay with me and go to school and i can help her get a job. i also told her last night that I loved her and i want her back. she told me she is dealing with a lot of emotions right now and she does not know how to feel. she said give her a week to clear her thoughts and she let me know.

 

that was was last night, I made the mistake in texting her asking to talk today because I am sooo depressed right now, i really do love her and i want her back. it also hurts me that her ex is also trying to get back with her because he can see her and I am not able to. I am just having a hard time I lover her so much we have been together since we were 18 we have a long history. I still got the feeling she loves me because she did call me twice yesterday, and we did have a decent conversation. I just need some help anyone I am going crazy wondering if she is back with him or not. I want her back I know she loves me. I know she does I feel that she did when we were on the phone she just had many mixed emotions going on. its hard for me too because I did not expect her to find someone else soo soon. its hard waiting a week for her to answer i want to call her sooo bad, look at it like this way its like a you go to a doctor to get tested for cancer and the doctor tells you in a week you will get the results. thats how i feel. I don't know if she will call me or what i wanna call her tonight. but its driving me crazy i need help anyone I love her sooo much

 

if any of my story is unclear let me know I just did not want to make this too long