lovehurtsxx Posted June 22, 2011 Posted June 22, 2011 he was my first, my first everything, i actually had something real once in my life. we've only been friends for a year but knew eachother for 4 years. we dated for only four months but i had fallen in love with my bestfriend way before that.. he was my world, i would do anything for him and it would kill me to see him sad. we spent EVERY SINGLE DAY together, before school, after school, spending the night, texting eachother 24/7. we were in love, i still am..him, not so much. he has graduated and im left here for one more year and he is moving far away. he has told me in the past we would be together in the future, after i was done with school..we would be together and nothing would change. but in the blink of an eye everything changed. he decided it wasnt healthy and things needed to change, yet we are still friends and talk like nothing..and its completely torn me apart. i cant sleep, when i talk to him..i feel like im going to throw up because i cant stand that things are different. i wake up crying and sleeping doesnt even help because he is in my dreams. all i want to do is hurt myself because i put all the blame on myself, feeling as if i could of done something different to stop this. i cant even think of myself with another guy, i cant move on..and i wont. it hurts so bad and i really cannot stop the tears from falling. i feel so depressed..and i dont know what to do.
ShatteredDreams Posted June 23, 2011 Posted June 23, 2011 I know how you feel. I loved my ex girlfriend so much, I remember the day we met, how we were friends, and when we started going out. We went out for 2 years and 5 months. She was my everything in my senior year of high school. Everyday after college I would go pick her up from school and hang out with her all day. I miss her so bad. She was a year younger than me. I dedicated 2 of my college years entirely to her, no time for friends or family. She was my first love, my best friend, my world, my heart, my everything. Then we started arguing a lot and lot, and she really began to hate me because our arguments became so hate-filled and nasty. But deep in my heart I loved her so much. She cheated on me and left me for my close friend, the only other friend I would talk to during our 2.5 years together. Now my heart is torn and I feel like killing myself every morning I wake up. She is in my dreams, and I keep seeing her smile.
HeartOfAPhoenix Posted June 23, 2011 Posted June 23, 2011 the dreams will subside. trust me it takes a while but they will eventually go away. I dreamt of my ex for about 2.5 months after the breakup (every night). I still dream of her but it's not every night any more and I don't feel depressed when I wake. now it's different for everyone but give it time and I'm sure the dreams will pass.
just_scott Posted June 23, 2011 Posted June 23, 2011 don't go hurting yourselves over someone that dumped you what's the point / you think their gonna care and have a change of heart and run to your side to stay forever ? once they leave just go no contact let things settle in [even with the dumper] and maybe just maybe they'll see that they made a huge mistake letting you go ,maybe even come back and ask for forgiveness THAT'S what i'm hopping for [though not putting all my eggs in that basket] my girl just up and walked out on me a month ago after a 4 yr relationship ,i didn't get a note,a text,a call even a damn hand shake AND i truly loved her BUT never thought of hurting myself
california15 Posted June 24, 2011 Posted June 24, 2011 Firstly: You. Will. Get. Through. This. Secondly: Do not place all the blame on yourself. Its not your fault. I know it hurts. If you read my origional thread I thought I was going to die because it hurt so bad the first week. But I'm still here. The dreams happen everynight, but they are just dreams - and like I've posted on others threads, I think its a subconscious way of processing the end of the relationship. They'll get better and subside (I'm trusting everyone else when they tell me this). I suggest taking time for yourself and focusing on you and on healing. Talking to him obviously is causing emotional distress and you should not talk to him if you can't handle it emotionally. You're not ready yet and thats ok. Put yourself first right now. Lastly, its okay to cry. Let it out. I'm sorry you're hurting. You can always post here for support.
TearyEyedPride Posted June 24, 2011 Posted June 24, 2011 I'm so sorry that you're hurting sweetheart. I know exactly how you feel because only a few weeks ago I was in a VERY VERY similar boat. Like cali said... you most definitely will make it! Trust me. Everyday you'll wake up, maybe cry maybe be sad, but the the stab in your chest, that resonating sting will diminish. You'll be able to eat again eventually, and the dreams will essential fade once your subconscious accepts it. Stay strong. Vent as much as you need to here. Focus on you. Trust me don't even think about trying to get involved with someone else. It's just not even worth it yet to entertain the thought. Really just try to focus on you for awhile. You need time cry,scream, holler, eat tons of ice cream, stay in your pajamas and have bad hair days before you find the energy to pick yourself up. Focus on friends other than him, and your family. Focus on getting you back.
Recommended Posts