Can't seem to let go.

[kbrooke]

I've been dating this guy since Aug oflast year. We broke up the first part of March due to problems withhis voyeurism and exhibitionist side. I had found where he had savedpictures of x-girlfriends and had created accounts on porn sightsinviting people to say “hi”. I felt like I could not trust himor feed his sexual desires because I was uncomfortable with things hewanted me to do. I still went through things or made him believethat I was doing them. Because we lived 1 hour away from each otherhe would always dare me to do things. I always questioned what hewas doing or with whom. He spends most of his time at home with hisfamily, so he says. He always told me I'm not in love with you butI'm getting there. He wanted me to move to where he lives. Becauseof having another home and unsteady ground I declined a job offeredto me in his city. Fast forward to April we got back together. Wewhere together and things where going well. We admitted what we bothdid wrong and decided to move forward. He even told me he was inlove with me the first time we where together but didn't want to puthimself out there. After being back together for 3 weeks he told mesomething was wrong and he didn't know what it was. I told him Iwould move next month just to be with him, that was not good enoughas something else was wrong. Two weeks passed and we started talkingagain. Things have not quite been the same. He seems a lot busiernow, doesn't contact me as much, and doesn't say I love you often. Isent him a text telling him how I have been hurt that he doesn't seemto have much time for me and 90% of our conversations surround sex. He never responded to me. I finally broke down and tried to reachhim and he ignored me. Finally after hours he said he was notignoring me that he had slept in and had a appointment he went to. I'm not sure I believe him. His 1 of 2 sons leaves today until midAugust to go see his mother. He is very saddened by this and I toldhim to spend as much time with him as possible. I also let him knowmy dog was injured and I would be checking on him during my lunchhour. I'm hurt once again he didn't care to call and ask how my dogwas. I don't know what to do. I wish I could get over him so hecan't hurt me anymore. I feel like I give and give. If we have afight I will drive the hour to go see him to try and patch things up. I'm so hurt but I love him with all my heart. He is 10 years olderthen me. I spoke to one of his family members a while back and shetold me his relationships only seem to last 2 years that he seems tobe scared. Any words of advise?