MandyC18 Posted June 21, 2011 Posted June 21, 2011 Where do i start. I met him my sophomore year his freshmen in Biology Honors. He had a crush on me and super curly hair (: and of course i thought i was some hot shot sophomore so the story ends there. But wait 2 years later, 3 for him, we meet again my senior year (just finished) his junior year. Lets say he really grew up and in my eyes was everything i wanted. Me i was at the peak of my high school years (gotta look good for my senior year)I was on dance team and so was his sister. Ive know his sister from dance never really new him though. So he's a runner and soccer player. It was cross country season and dance season as well. We had our first sleepover with the team and a few girls and i left to go to the store to get some food. I'm driving and we see a shirtless guy running, so of course we roll down the windows and honk and yell at him! Not knowing it was him! So we freak out i mean his sister is on our team...there for he is off limits right? wrong.. The next day i see him running again and i honk, he laughs! So we chat on Facebook here and there and started saying hi to each other at school. September 22 2010, i chatted him of course not knowing what to say. So i said "so you think the dance team can keep up with the cross country team" (his team and my team saw each other during morning practices running around the school) He responds and we have a fun conversation from there. Before it ended he goes "wtf" and i said "what?" he goes "there's something wrong with my phone" i go "whats wrong?!" he goes "it doesn't have your number" i laughed and was flattered it was so cute. So i give him my number and as smooth as he was didn't text me till Thursday night so i could "want him more" Friday we meet up at school after our team photos for dance and cross country and it continued from there<3 Now comes October, the month that forever changed my life. October at our high school is eventful, homecoming game, homecoming dance, spirit week, Halloween parties, peprallys, everything! Well although i had all of that to look forward too as a senior...there was a huge problem, his sister. She hated the fact that we were interested in each other and were talking. She discouraged us an tried preventing us from being together, i mean i love his sister not only was she my friend but my teammate. I respected her opinions but yet found them unfair because its his relationship. We were wishy washy for awhile because of her opinions. We really wanted to be together but she was in the way. All of our other friends were on our side and supported us. So spirit week comes around which is the week were we have different days to dress up. Homecoming dance was that saturday and i was really worried he wasn't going to ask me. Until one of the days i go to my locker with my best friend, normal routine, to open it up to a bear, my favorite candies, and a note card saying "Homecoming? -A.L" My heart lit up and i couldn't wait till Saturday. During this month we texted everyday, started hanging out alone, hangout after the football games (we danced on the sidelines the danceteam) and started acting more like a couple publicly! Homecoming finally came, we took pictures, went to the dance, everything was absolutely perfect i felt like Cinderella at the ball but it wasn't going to end at 12. So we drive back to his house he couldn't hangout it was late anyways. I was parked outside his house and we were just talking about our night, and then he goes "so do you want to make this official" i paused...did he really just ask me out? what about his sister? its our relationship? all these thoughts raced through my head...and then i answered him "yeah" We did it, we made it official after about a month of hell it felt like Romeo and Juliet, forbidden love. His sister got over it dont worry and her and i became closer <3 November, December, January, February... During these months we were at our happiest. November was my birthday month and he surprised me the night before by taking me ice skating! December, i went to almost all of his soccer games and December 29thhe told me he loved me. January we were so in love and February we felt unstoppable, valentines day we had a picnic on the beach! I mean a lot more happened during these months, we became each others best friend and in my eyes soul mates. Went through every experience together and it was the climax of our relationship. March, April... March was his birthday month and i had the best surprises for him! April was a great month too. For a good 3-4 months we went to the movies every SUNDAY (5$) However, we started fighting more and with these fights, and i love you wasn't going to end them. Our relationship was a serious one but so were the fights. We always found a way to drag them out and say such hurtful things even though we didn't mean them. We fixed them here and there sometimes we would ignore each other at school because we were still angry. But of course we were still great with each other and had so much fun. May.... I never knew i could dislike a month so much. This month was huge for my family and i. It was the month were i finally got to tryout for the Dallas Cowboys Cheerleaders! (I made it to semi finals but not finals! so amazing) However our relationship was on the rocks, March 19th we had a bad day and broke up..he had a bad track meet the night before and i wasn't as reassuring as i should have been being his girlfriend and all. So it affected us the next day and we broke up. We were both distraught and of course he regretted it as soon as the words came out of his mouth. Well obviously we made it to may meaning we got back together that night! However at this point in the relationship we were always fighting it seemed like. I was traveling back and fourth to Dallas and we felt extremely distant. I had senior finals, dance recital, tryouts, college, everything and it had an impact on us. Also i forgot to mention..every time we fought my parents got involved and kinda saw him as the bad guy. But really when your upset you need someone so i went to my best friend and parents when i was sad. Get the picture? He felt so unwelcome and unwanted i felt terrible.. So it was friday the 13th my auditions were on the 15th and i left the 14th. That night we had a huge fallout. On the verge of breaking up it was the worst night...we argued and everything till 2-3in the morning until i made him realize he was my everything. He felt terrible and we stayed together! So while in Dallas one night he was acting so strange and i thought he was fed up with me he was telling i don't wanna talk. leave me alone and stuff so i did something i regretted..i broke up with him. He was caught off guard completely and wasn't wanting to take me back. IT WAS A MISUNDERSTANDING! My best friend then told me he was planning a surprise for me for because i made the first cuts, he was going to surprise me after my dance recital (Wednesday). But he was acting so rude how was i supposed to know of course i thought the worst. I was a mess my mom had no idea what was going on i handled this all by myself, begging for him back, calling him, everything i could do but he wasn't budging. He was in shock i actually did it for once. He was supposed to come pick me up at the air port with my dad :/ So that night he come over at 10something and we made up it took a lot to get him to come but he said im coming over! Our make up was one from a movie, we both were crying and it just felt so perfect like we really were gonna make it. But a few days later we broke up again..and it has been hell from there. We broke up on our 7month. I made him the cutest gift it was a picture frame of most of our movie tickets i saved from our dates, a seven made from pictures of us and pins of jasmine and aladdin because we were them for Halloween. HARDEST night yet, we broke it off he needed space and i begged of course. The next day i went into school for final makeups and stuff and when i got home....bawled my eyes out i felt so alone and upset. Well Thursday i ran into at school by "accident" (; and later that day he texted me saying i miss you and we just went from talking from there to meeting up and getting back together. We always go to a place to talk it out. Veterans Park, its soccer fields, playground, etc. Its our place<3 We went there one of the first times we hangout actually. So we ended up going back to his house and we just talked and goofed off for hours, it truly was one of my favorite nights with him because i never thought i would see him again...and when he kissed me that night, i held back tears because it was so magical. But of course we had a fallout the next night and broke up May 28th for good. i had family coming in for graduation so i didn't have time to be alone. June/Now..We missed each other so much, almost got back together twice during the break up but my best friend interfered and discouraged him. Which was wrong because its our relationship and he knows she doesn't like him anymore from previous reasons so why he went to her idk! We talked here and there somedays were good others bad...we had more fallouts. We were finally at a good point sorta and i made him a gift, im know for my gift, it was a memory box, 157 cards of memories (good ones) we had. Well we had a fallout and he was like we are never hanging out etc..so i did what i had to do. I went to his house and surprised him with the gift, his sister and dad helped me out. Well i finally say him it has been about 2 weeks since i last saw him and i was so nervous i was shaking. Everything was perfect he laughed and talked and hugged, so i left and as i left he called me saying lets go somewhere. We hung out for about 2 hrs and like i said everything was perfect. We didn't talk about what happened just enjoyed our companies. So then i thought i had him..but i was wrong. I left for DC to visit people and we had a fallout again, lets say well we had been "hooking up" we have 4 nights. Not in a row but scattered. every time i thought he would just say im ready but i was wrong. Now look here i am spilling my heart out to all of you. We had a big fall out last night. But thats what we do, we fight so what yeah they get nasty but whos doesnt. A good thing though is that we never end things on a bad note, one of us always comes around and something happens. So what do i do, im a mess. Ive seriously cried almost every night since the break up, i pray like there's no tomorrow, in hopes (must i say i never give up or lose hope even when i feel like i should i dont) he comes running back to me. Im getting mixed signals, i know he wants to be together but he tells me im not ready for the stress again, not now, your parents. i try to tell him my parents are fine with him and they are he's just soo stubborn. I really thought we would get back together by our 8th month which is friday...i would need a miracle for that. I hate waiting but yet i know if he comes back to me it was all worth it. Yes i know i sound pathetic, its always the girl who is trying to hold on. But he was my first love and serious relationship as was i with him. I'm so heartbroken its unbearable, so alone and upset its hard and now that its summer time i have all the time in the world...I know i annoy him and he never wants to talk about what happened because it makes him upset but hes trying to be strong. He can say some pretty rude things but he always says crap when hes mad we all do. Im hanging on but im barely breathing...
DontWorryBHappy Posted June 21, 2011 Posted June 21, 2011 Hey, I know how you feel. If you need someone to talk to you can always send me a message on here and maybe we can chat. I'm off school too so I know what you mean about having too much time to think. I know it's hard, but the best thing you could do right now is not talk to him for a while. I think he misses you, but he's confused and so are you. So if you guys keep talking to each other things will just stay the same because you havent given yourselves any time apart to figure out your feelings and get over what happened between you. My ex and I realized today that we cant talk right now, and I dont know when I'll see or talk to him again, but I know that if we continue talking things will never change. I hope this helps a little bit.
Author MandyC18 Posted June 21, 2011 Author Posted June 21, 2011 yeah what happens with us is if we have a fallout, we never leave us on a bad note. However i don't know when we will talk again but as hard as it is, i have to try and talk to him less. Make him want me again i have to seem stable when he talks to me not some wreck. But thank you!
Chi townD Posted June 21, 2011 Posted June 21, 2011 AHHH! Young love. But, re-read your post. You two were constantly fighting and getting back together. Fighting, together, fighting, together.....That should clue you in. The one thing is, you two are very young and are just coming into your own. At your age, you're changing everyday. Maturing more and more. I mean, you have to admit, you changed a lot from the time you've met him till now. As much as you don't want to hear this, the best thing for you two to do is spend some time apart. Get to know yourself and the person you're becoming and after a while if he's still around then...who knows!
Author MandyC18 Posted June 22, 2011 Author Posted June 22, 2011 i know we are both afraid of the past but once we have a little space and realize like we dont need to go back down that road we can control our emotions we can try and work it out again
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