RuinedLife Posted June 21, 2011 Posted June 21, 2011 Love this RL! I see the hint of a sparkle! Awesome. Maybe you and Karala can collaborate! Thanks geegirl! Just noticed a typo in what I wrote (no doubt there are more I've yet to spot but still) "Then I'm come home, I'll return to the present" should clearly be- "Then I'll come home, I'll return to the present" Think it needs work, but glad you guys like it!
geegirl Posted June 21, 2011 Posted June 21, 2011 Thanks geegirl! Just noticed a typo in what I wrote (no doubt there are more I've yet to spot but still) "Then I'm come home, I'll return to the present" should clearly be- "Then I'll come home, I'll return to the present" Think it needs work, but glad you guys like it! Those are just little details! What matters is the message, and I love it and I am feeling my emotions through your words.
RuinedLife Posted June 21, 2011 Posted June 21, 2011 A long time ago, my life it was happy But now everyday, I feel nothing but cr**** When happiness flowed, my spirits they were jiving But now that has dried up, they are no longer thriving Without my love drug, my adoration supply The only thing that hits me, is tears, so I cry And even though each day I really do try Still seems even good moods are laced with a sigh Why, you may ask, does my sadness engulf me? Why did I give up and abandon my soul key? And that last question especially, may appear to be nonsense But its just another riddle, used to cover up my pretense Because deep in my psyche, things they are twisted Derailed and scattered, my thoughts they aren't listed Something is broken, that's the only thing certain But try as you might, you won't lift the curtain Because all these dark demons which run wild in my mind Are tricksy and devious, impossible to find You could keep on seeking and searching forever But sooner or later you'd give up, as its a pointless endeavor This is because all these quirks deep inside me Maybe wacky and weird, but are still in my psyche So as these quirks and me, are one and the same At their spiky footsteps, I cannot place blame Instead I must humbly embrace their unsettling instability Rescue and recruit them, to nurture my new born invincibility True apart of myself is bitter and hateful Despising itself and utterly ungrateful For all of these quirks that serve my uniqueness But its time to let go and accept their fundamental weakness As interacting with others has become such a strain Looking in the mirror fills me with nothing but disdain And my heart seems to seek for a figure that has faded A long distant memory through which I have waded So to stop this cycle I need a new task A mission in life to peal back my thick mask Because hiding my fears, my sadness and doubt Is failing me slowly and phasing me out I don't want to go the way of the Dodo And if I keep up like this I'll soon be a hobo So instead of this path destined for sorrow I'll try to re-assemble my happiness for a better tomorrow
Author Karala Posted June 24, 2011 Author Posted June 24, 2011 Karala, I dedicate this to you: Thanks JasonRules, that was sweet! I liked it better than the original ^^
Author Karala Posted June 24, 2011 Author Posted June 24, 2011 I don't want to go the way of the Dodo And if I keep up like this I'll soon be a hobo That made me laugh out loud, and God I know exactly how you feel... You do have a knack, girl!
Author Karala Posted June 24, 2011 Author Posted June 24, 2011 I am to the point (again) where I am totally happy and content being by myself and have no real desire to date or fall in love. We all know what happens next... Either my Ex will come back or I will meet someone new who will foil all my plans!!!! It's funny how that works... The joke is always on us. How long has it been since the b/u? I wish I were in your shoes, at the moment I feel completely disgusted at love in general and I just hope it never happens to me again. Problem is I don't want to be single either. I guess I just want to be with someone who would be in love with me, but I wouldn't be in love with them. Who wants to go through all that trouble again -_-
Author Karala Posted June 24, 2011 Author Posted June 24, 2011 How long since your break up? How long did you date your Ex? When was the last time you had any contact? Ok I don't get it... Are you asking me or am I asking you? lol ^^ I know you feel like a lunatic at moment due to the roller coaster of feelings and emotions you are going through... but all in all, I think you are handling it rather well. I am not feeling like a lunatic anymore, ever since I began NC (3 weeks ago), but I was a complete nut job prior to that, for about 3 months. (Not letting go, trying to get him back and whatnot) I can't say I'm feeling great everyday, but I'm feeling incredibly peaceful, something I hadn't felt in years. Actually, something weird is happening these days, I seem to be remembering that I sort of wanted and initiated this breakup in the first place. Seems like I totally forgot about that the moment it was made final. But now it's surfacing again. I wished with all my heart that he would finally want me like I wanted him, but I knew it was very unlikely to happen, and hence I wanted out of this misery. I'm out at last. THIS IS GOOD. Maybe I'm on the wrong forum, lol.
JasonRules Posted June 24, 2011 Posted June 24, 2011 I am to the point (again) where I am totally happy and content being by myself and have no real desire to date or fall in love. We all know what happens next... Either my Ex will come back or I will meet someone new who will foil all my plans!!!! It's funny how that works... The joke is always on us. I'm in the same position except that I am dating, but am very relaxed about it. I am not anal about going out with people or what not. I'm content of how things are now and have accepted things. Ultimately this is what happens. Either our ex comes back or we find someone else. No surprises there...
RuinedLife Posted June 26, 2011 Posted June 26, 2011 That made me laugh out loud, and God I know exactly how you feel... You do have a knack, girl! Mmm, yeah that Dodo bit was probably the most true for me. Ok so here's another one... Time may keep on slipping, seeping into the cracks But the mistakes I've made, launch persistent attacks That may seem extreme, and may seem defeatable But so far I'm afraid, they've been far from self-treatable As they slash at my soul, and kick at my heart Screeching and piercing, like a blood hungry dart They tear at my insides, rip out my essence But so far it seems, I've not learnt any lessons And I know it's frustrating, I know I'm annoying And some of you may think, I'm doing nothing but toying With all your emotions, and sucking you dry But this isn't the truth, because I can't help but cry And by posting on here, I don't mean to hurt you I'm just so lost, so alone, and friends left are so few That coming to Love Shack and reading the comments Makes me feel a bit better, and lessens my torments And everyone that comes here, to post on this website Such as Exit and geegirl showing me that there is light Means more to me than words can convey And I really do hope you won't mind if I stay As all of the kindness, the advice that you give me Shows me my stumbles, and helps set my soul free And all of your love really does give me some hope Really helps me to live on, really helps me to still cope So I thank you Karala, and I thank you one and all Because without each of you here, I would surely just fall.
Author Karala Posted June 26, 2011 Author Posted June 26, 2011 Mmm, yeah that Dodo bit was probably the most true for me. Ok so here's another one... Time may keep on slipping, seeping into the cracks But the mistakes I've made, launch persistent attacks That may seem extreme, and may seem defeatable But so far I'm afraid, they've been far from self-treatable As they slash at my soul, and kick at my heart Screeching and piercing, like a blood hungry dart They tear at my insides, rip out my essence But so far it seems, I've not learnt any lessons And I know it's frustrating, I know I'm annoying And some of you may think, I'm doing nothing but toying With all your emotions, and sucking you dry But this isn't the truth, because I can't help but cry And by posting on here, I don't mean to hurt you I'm just so lost, so alone, and friends left are so few That coming to Love Shack and reading the comments Makes me feel a bit better, and lessens my torments And everyone that comes here, to post on this website Such as Exit and geegirl showing me that there is light Means more to me than words can convey And I really do hope you won't mind if I stay As all of the kindness, the advice that you give me Shows me my stumbles, and helps set my soul free And all of your love really does give me some hope Really helps me to live on, really helps me to still cope So I thank you Karala, and I thank you one and all Because without each of you here, I would surely just fall. Awww! That was so sweet! I really don't mind if you stay, and so what if some people think you're annoying sometimes. I know that I like reading your woeful but perfectly articulated and well-spelled posts better than a lot of the stuff that goes around here. lol.
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