delilah123 Posted June 19, 2011 Posted June 19, 2011 I think I already know the answer, but I'd like some input. I met Josh when I was 15, we hit it off right away and we dated briefly. Things fell apart after a few months just because we were so young blah blah, I started dating someone new but we both had feelings for eachother for those 2 years. At 17 we started dating again, he came to me and told me he had liked me the whole time (we had been friends during this period, although mainly talking online and seeing eachother at parties). The first year of our relationship was great, the second year, he broke up with me because he thought it was too full on and he couldn't handle it.. then he wanted me back, so we got back.. then he decided he couldn't handle it, then we got back etc etc around 8 months later (so 2 years, 8 months of being "together") I told him he needed to see a physcologist.. she told him that he had formal thought disorder and that he had some other disorder relating to not being in relationships (this includes relationships with ihs friends.. he would be close, then get very distant, similar to our reltaionship). We decided that with him seeing a councillor we could get back together.. we were then fine for about another year.. then he won 11,000 at the casino and is using it to fufill a life long dream of a solo trip around africa for a year (which I am happy for him to do) .. however we were getting so close at this point, he then broke up with me because he thoght he wouldn't leave if we were this close. .. we ended up getting back together because we literally can't stay away. Just recently at around 3 1/2 years, he has broken up with me again, again because of not being able to handl ebeing so close to someone when he has his own emotional problems and I have mine (which hehas said mine aren't a big deal, only a big deal for someone like him who already has his own). The thing is, we are both still sure we are perfect match's for eachother dispite his personal **** which he constantly tells me has nothing to do with me. We get on like a house on fire, after 3/12 years and after knowing him for over 5, when I see him walk into a room I can't help but smile, we're the couple in a resteruant that people are jealous of.. like.. we don't argue about anything it's just this constant push pull with his mental state.. The guy isn't crazy or anything and you wouldn't notice if you werent in a relationship with him. He thinks when he comes back from overseas this will all go away (his councilor has said that it's a grea start and it may help with his issues).. and he wants to catch up in a year when he is back and see where things go... How do I let go of this? What do I do? It feels like I can't not talk to him he is my best friend and we get on fine and we have no hard feelings.. but when we do talk, we end up getting back together..
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