AlisaMarie Posted June 17, 2011 Posted June 17, 2011 Hi everyone. I haven't been here for about 6 months so I am sure there are many new people that are feeling the pain of a break up. I am not going to get into my story again, but let's just say I am alone again. I have been up all night. On and off for almost 2 years. Our longest breakup was for about 5 months but we talked in between. He as been different. When he came home from work I got the "I love you, but not like that" speech. I explained to him that I always wanted to be his friend and there for him, but I can't stand this game of ping pong and I deserve better. The problem is, that I am in love with him. I know all of the cliches- I am just sick of being the giving loving top notch girlfriend that isn't worthy of being in love with. I was good enough to be his maid, and his nanny and love a 2 year old with all my heart that isn't even mine! There were always other girls that he worked with that I think he wanted to feel out. One of them he had a short relationship with while we were apart. She never left him alone. I have a feeling he wants to hook it up again. I deactivated facebook, blocked his number, and asked his dad to get his stuff. Can everyone just give me some support in my NC venture? The longest I ever went was 3 weeks but I never blocked the digits. I want to shake every thought of him and RID him from my life. The problem is, I am a creeper. I almost like to find out things but I can't do it anyone. HOW DO YOU NOT CARE? How do you turn it off. How do you just act like the past 2 years of your life didn't happen? HELP.
Arikel Posted June 17, 2011 Posted June 17, 2011 The coping forums. Post your story, read it and see how unhappy you are. Post in the coping forums whenever you need support to stay NC, or advice on how to handle certain emotions. You know what you need to do, you just need to borrow some strength to keep it up. There are some good people on LS, and they really do help make you feel not so alone
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