JustTawm Posted June 15, 2011 Posted June 15, 2011 On the 6th, my ex broke up with me. She felt that that our relationship was going nowhere, that she couldnt have fun with me, that she didn't want a relationship - I'd told her I was swamped with college work and in a few weeks it would get better. I even had lots planned. This was a month before we broke up. Anyway we break up, I'm feeling ok as we're both headed off to Uni, Im moving on and getting better and I was fine and accepted her reasons (believed I could get her back a month down the road). We were going to stay good friends. Then, I find out that for the last two weeks of our relationship she was meeting with another guy and even kissed him. This has totally ruined me. I'm back to square one and worse. I still love her. I believed I could trust her completely with my life even as a friend and tell her anything. And the problem is, she truly is the only person I can talk to. A day before we broke up and a day after she was seeing him, going out with him and sleeping at his. A few days before the break up she even said that she loved me. I was depressed before I met her and she was literally the light of my life. Everything was perfect for a year but as we became stressed with work, it tapered off. I should have acted, but she never told me how she truly felt, instead she spent the energy on another guy. She wouldn't communicate and I would have literally done anything for her, she knew that. So now I'm alone (friends have moved on), miserable and the only one I can talk to has destroyed my trust and is with another man. And honestly I'm feeling suicidal and don't know what to do. Felt I had to type this out here as there's nowhere else for it to go
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