Just A Joe Posted June 15, 2011 Posted June 15, 2011 Can't believe I'm writing this, but feeling some heavy duty pain after grieving a failing marriage (for the last four or five years). Divorce is right around the corner. Sooner, the better, in my opinion. And everyone around me seems to share that. Divided camp though. Her friends are rallying around her and I'm glad she has that support. She's going to need every bit of it when I'm gone. I can't get beyond the pain, the sense of loss and the foolishness I feel. She cheated on me for four or five years. I was aware of it and she knew it. Tracked her w/ GPS and she didn't give a rat's a**. Two special needs kids on top of this and they may both end up with me. I know she can't handle both. Courts here typically hand them over to the mom, but not always. I know two or three single dads. I've been mistaken for the same many times- church, the playground, stores. Sorry for the book. Looking for advice. I don't want to be alone forever and miss having a woman's caring presence in my life, but don't know if I can ever trust another one after this. This woman was my alleged soulmate. Any ideas or suggestions welcome. In therapy for the last year to deal with this and life, but the doc just wants to medicate. I'm not into that. Let me feel the pain and build the blues playbook.
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