justagirrl Posted June 14, 2011 Posted June 14, 2011 (edited) Hey LS, Haven't been on here in a while. Not trying to avoid any unwanted feedback or advice because all is greatly appreciated and most of the time, always right. Just wanted to clear my head of everything and focus on getting back on track... Haven't seen him since May 3rd. We agreed to be friends with benefits and never even got together to do that. Everytime I've wanted to text him, I get my iPod, running sneakers, and run outside. I don't even know where I'm going most of the time, I just run until I can't anymore, and it really helps. The weather has been beautiful here lately, so I get some girl friends together and go to the beach ANDDDDD i leave my phone in the car. If i have to call anyone I'll use my friends phone, but this just helps me avoid reaching for my phone whenever I think of him. I've written many letters that I haven't sent him. I cry my eyes out while doing this, but I think that's a good thing. I just have to get it all out while it's fresh in my mind. Here's the part that sucks: To get to my job, I have to pass my ex's house...there's no other way to get there and it's right on the end of the street so I cannot avoid it. Sometimes I purposely don't look because I don't want to see him...or even some random car there and get ideas =/ He lives with his parents because he just graduated college...I just get scared maybe he has another girl over and then I look. I try so hard to get him out of my head. I'm not gonna quit my job! But I can't avoid this one. I guess I'm doing a lot better than I was before. NC is wayyyyy easier now. It's still difficult, but a month ago, I was struggling. My grades last semester were horrible. I even failed a class. What a wake up call. I let this monster of a guy mess with my head so much that it reflected on things that are WAY more important than a guy who doesn't care about me. I'm still healing, and won't be over this for a while. I still miss him and love him...I'm very young and I have my whole life ahead of me. I just have to learn to accept things for what they are and be patient, because there is someone out there who will love me too. Edited June 14, 2011 by justagirrl
Hhhh Posted June 14, 2011 Posted June 14, 2011 Nice to hear from from even though i haven't read any of your post i still feels good to hear that someone is genuinely doing well after a break up. All you need to do now is stay this track and you will do just fine. Wish the best for you.
Author justagirrl Posted June 14, 2011 Author Posted June 14, 2011 Nice to hear from from even though i haven't read any of your post i still feels good to hear that someone is genuinely doing well after a break up. All you need to do now is stay this track and you will do just fine. Wish the best for you. Thank you...it's still so hard tho, i'm not doing good. Just better than before. Hope you are well too
Nantucket1984 Posted June 14, 2011 Posted June 14, 2011 Thank you...it's still so hard tho, i'm not doing good. Just better than before. Hope you are well too justagirrl, I havent read your story but plan on it. Just wanted to stay good job on staying NC and doing some healthy(like running) when you want to contact your ex. I am currently having a hard time going NC but I have done it for 6 days so far. You seem to be similar to my ex gfs age, can you ready my story? it will help hearing another females perspective. Would love your truthful advice/opinion! http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t281767/
radiodarcy Posted June 16, 2011 Posted June 16, 2011 good to hear from you, justagrrl! it sounds like you've been doing a great job sticking to NC. as for having to drive by his house on your way to work - - it doesn't sound like there's much you can do about that :\ but -- hey it's just a house, right? takes a second - - or two to drive by it. so just concentrate on looking straight ahead and fight that urge to look. i know it's not going to be easy. but as i'm sure you already know, nothing good is going to come out of it.
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