sola Posted June 13, 2011 Posted June 13, 2011 Its only been two days since my breakup, and it has been extremely hard to go without hearing from him. He was a very sweet bf. I got used and actually expected a call or a text wishing me "sweet dreams beautiful". I litrally couldn't go to sleep until he said good night to me (cheesy I know). The nights make me so sad because I know the text won't come anymore. He always made me feel special, beautiful, desired, smart, funny, etc. I even thought he was the one as in my mind he was flawless (yes, I was that naive). Until I found out he was going to europe with ex and then convinced me I wasnt ok with the trip because I was too insecure and even suggested to get professional help to help me cope w insecurities (i started waking up with anxiety in the middle of the night doubting myself, wondering if I was being irrational, trying to figure out why the ex in his life bothered me so much). I would send him anxiety-filled messages he later claimed stressed him out. We talked yesterday and I was finally able to explain why the trip with the ex bothered me (b4 I just told him "it was weird", which he inmediately rejected as a valid argument. After he heard my argument he agreed it was selfish of him to disregard my feelings and not cancel the trip. He became aware of subconciously sabotaging our relationship by holding on to the past. Yesterday I left his place feeling at peace w myself knowing I am not really as insecure as he tried to convinced me I was. This morning however woke up with another panic attack now thinking "wait a minute! If he agrees holding on to the ex is a bad idea, and he still cares about me, why don't we give it another shot?" Should I reached out to him? I want to talk to him really bad
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