damadulo Posted June 12, 2011 Posted June 12, 2011 Hello everyone. So, here's my story: 5 months ago I began dating a girl that was recovering from being rejected by a friend of mine. I loved her for quite a while and she kinda liked me, so we gave it a go. I knew I was rebound, but I tried to make it work. In the meantime, there were some issues: - our college organizes holidays and we have to go in teams of 4 women and 4 men. She prepared her team with friends, but lacked 3 men. She didn't invite me, I asked her why, big drama, eventually I went along, big drama during the holidays; - I didn't trust her on a very personal issue. Despite this, the past 5 weeks were amazing, she began admiring our compatibility in tastes, my support, kindness and good spirit, I blended in with her friends and she with mine, we went on a romantic weekend - she began to love me and said so herself. We have differences, I'm a terrible student, she now became a doctor (we're both 24), she makes friends easily, I don't, she has plans every night, I don't, etc, but we got along. Last week she talked to me about a friend who used to send her romantic messages, emails, tried to arrange dates with her, etc. I told her that made me feel uncomfortable and asked if she talked back with him and if she thought he loved her. She said she didn't and no, they're just friends. I said he was giving clear signs though, and didn't think the whole matter was very fair on me. Catalyst for big drama - turns out I don't trust her, she knows how to handle men, she'll do whatever she wants, she never forgave me for not trusting her on that personal issue (or she did, but doesn't "forget"...), I'm a bad student because I try to find excuses to fail (this is true though...), she doesn't need me, and I'll not bring her down. From then on, we make up at night, in the morning it's all wrong again, accusations persist, now she cries during sex, now I don't love her because I don't send her messages anymore, now I can't have an erection during sex, now I don't love her even when I say I love her. Friday she went on holidays, texts me saying she might be demanding too much and it'll all be alright, calls me Saturday, she's happy because she went to Disneyland, I'm melancholic because I've been studying, she thinks I'm not answering "right", she thinks I don't want to talk to her, she thinks I'm ruining her holidays. I fell suffocated. I told her I need to breathe and will only talk to her Tuesday, when she arrives. I love her so much. I think she loves me too and she'd like to see me succeed and she wants us to be happy, but I feel suffocated. She says she wants to feel security and loved again, but nothing I say or do has any impact anymore. I don't know what to do.
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