Nohbody Posted June 6, 2011 Posted June 6, 2011 After a good month or so, my heart stopped feeling like it was simultaneously bleeding and on fire. That pain in the chest was bad. It woke me up in the middle of the night and didn't let me sleep. My mind didn't stop racing and I blamed myself for everything. Funny the difference a little less than a month and a half make. I can't get her off my mind tonight. The pain in my chest is gone... but there's nothing there now. It's a cold, empty feeling. Love don't live here anymore, except that isn't true. I wish it were. My forehead is pressed against the cool glass and I think of you. Why did you leave? Why'd you do this? What did I do that pushed you away? There are no answers. The truth of the matter is, people don't know why they do anything. Everything we do is done, and our reasonings tend toward an after the fact rationalization - or so I learned in psych 101. In this case I can really see that being true. There are no answers. That's the hardest part. I know you don't know why you did this.
reimeivn Posted June 6, 2011 Posted June 6, 2011 Mee too! After a while it stopped hurting. But its cold inside, you wake up feeling like part of you is dead. It is good that you are feeling that way. The part that belongs to her is dying. I hug you, and I promise you that you did not do anything wrong. You know people make mistakes but I forgive my ex all the times. I loved him, so you must understand too that you would not blame her if she did the same things to you. It is really just people leaving us. It is sad, but it is not your fault. Be strong, people come and leave us all the times but you still have your journey ahead. She left, she was never the one who should stop you from living your life. Believe that there is someone who still waiting to be with you through thick and thin, and to complete your life with you. Hug
Renard99 Posted June 6, 2011 Posted June 6, 2011 After a good month or so, my heart stopped feeling like it was simultaneously bleeding and on fire. That pain in the chest was bad. It woke me up in the middle of the night and didn't let me sleep. My mind didn't stop racing and I blamed myself for everything. Funny the difference a little less than a month and a half make. I can't get her off my mind tonight. The pain in my chest is gone... but there's nothing there now. It's a cold, empty feeling. Love don't live here anymore, except that isn't true. I wish it were. My forehead is pressed against the cool glass and I think of you. Why did you leave? Why'd you do this? What did I do that pushed you away? There are no answers. The truth of the matter is, people don't know why they do anything. Everything we do is done, and our reasonings tend toward an after the fact rationalization - or so I learned in psych 101. In this case I can really see that being true. There are no answers. That's the hardest part. I know you don't know why you did this. I know exactly how you feel as I think I'm in the same place. The immediate pain of your heart shattering has dulled but the shattered remains are swept away, leaving that cold dead feeling where your heart should be. It's at this point where the mind takes over from the heart and so begins the mental pain. I have no answers either. I'm sure she has her reasons now but at the time it was out of the blue and seemed without reason. I now ask the same questions as you, Why did you leave? Why'd you do this? What did I do that pushed you away? but I know I will never get an answer for these and that's hard to accept even though I'll have to one day. I'm right with you mate
Author Nohbody Posted August 7, 2011 Author Posted August 7, 2011 http://damienyouth.bandcamp.com/track/coming-home it was the only one I made my wish upon. and I wondered if you're ever coming home
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