Lilmisus Posted June 5, 2011 Posted June 5, 2011 Tomorrow, June 5, 2011, would have been our "official" one year anniversary. So happens, that it's my brother and sister in law's one year anniversary as well. Though we started seeing each other April of last year, he decided to be "romantic" and make our relationship "official" at their wedding. It was probably the happiest day of my life, since he helped make it so special. We were making big plans for tomorrow. Go out of town, and have it be really special, ya know? Kind of make it into a romantic weekend getaway..one we never took, and were planning on doing. The thing is - is that it's kind of impossible to act like tomorrow isn't there. Kind of hard not to remember the wedding that took place last year - pictures everywhere, and everyone is talking about it again, and wishing them a happy anniversary. Every time I re-look through the wedding pictures, I just remember him standing there watching us take them, or the walks we took, or the amount of times he held my hand (for the first time) in front of my family members, and how they kept making fun of us for it. Or the fact that it was the day we shared our first kiss, and spent two months building up to it. There were a lot of great memories from that day..but I just don't want to remember them right now. Maybe in another few months (or years) I can look back at that day with fondness. It's just hard not to be thrown back to a year ago right now. I'm keeping it together pretty well right now (haven't broken down or anything like that), but I know that tomorrow I'll probably be a wreck. I'm just wondering what I can do tomorrow to help keep myself together? To look at it as my brother's anniversary, not my (would be) anniversary? I have to work tomorrow, and I can't exactly break down in the middle of my shift, ya know? Any activities I can do? Anyway I can tell my friends or family to just...help keep my mind off things? Anything?
Nohbody Posted June 5, 2011 Posted June 5, 2011 Try to be happy for your bro and sis-in-law on their anniversary - and what's more, be hopeful. Understand that while this relationship didn't work out you will have something just as special as they do at some time in the future. Look forward to that! If they could find one another, you will find someone right for you. And there will probably be cake at some point. Look forward to that.
guitarxkid Posted June 5, 2011 Posted June 5, 2011 Well on my would have been one year anniversary, my ex completely forgot about it... We had always planned that we would do something special, and she was one to always make a huge deal of such things and dates. (With her ex boyfriend before me she remember, but she didn't remember me?) This completely devastated me, but my ex was pretty heartless. It doesn't sound like thats the case for you and it sounds like it was a really special day so just try and get through the day as best as you can- if you can get your mind off of it thats great, but its gonna be hard to not think about it.
smudge21 Posted June 5, 2011 Posted June 5, 2011 Yeah understand this as approaching a year since I met my ex... there's a few dates coming up that will bring back those memories and to be honest, I've no idea how I'm going to deal with them. They'll be a lot of that "this time last year I was..." blah blah blah, and it'll be really hard.
california15 Posted June 5, 2011 Posted June 5, 2011 Thinking about you today! you can be strong and do it. If you make today out to be bigger and more important than it really is, then you'll see it as such. Treat today as any old day, nothing special, and hopefully it will feel like any old day... and look, you're about halfway through today by now. you'll make it - we're here for you
Author Lilmisus Posted June 5, 2011 Author Posted June 5, 2011 Thanks for the responses y'all Especially the cake comment, that made me laugh, and look forward to some cake..not today..but sometime in the near future, I'll hopefully be having some I'm trying to just ignore what today is, and so far, it hasn't been too hard to do so..but there are just those little reminders...like reading someone say "happy anniversary!" to my brother on Facebook. Or the fact that I had to explain to my dad that the reason that my brothers couldn't help him and my step mom move today, was because it was my brother's anniversary. Though my dad didn't remember the exact date of their anniversary..he does remember that it was the day my ex and I started dating..so it was just weird getting that "look" that said "Oh..yea..I'm sorry..." and him not actually saying anything. Oh, and apparently the fact that today is also my grandparents 30th anniversary But I am trying to view this as "their" day...and I'm trying to look forward to the future and to who I'll hopefully end up married. Think ahead, always My issue though is just..remembering..and thinking of it as a story. A story that I knew was going to end, but with an ending that I wasn't expecting. Actually..it kind of helps to think of it as that..just as a story that I experienced, and wondering what my next story will be like..but it doesn't help keep my mind off of it...which I've been trying hard to do for the past few weeks. Let's just hope I can make it through the rest of this day without getting wasted and without doing anything that I'll regret..setting my goals high..oh yeah.
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