Got the "its over" phone call yesterday and now I want to give up on everything

June 21, 2011

okay my love have you considered that............................HE'S LYING????

the reason i say this is that after breaking up and getting back together repeat repeat with my guy, i decided i'd had enough and broke up with him. the next day he invited me over "to talk" and pretty much had a passive aggressive hurtful speech prepared and then offered to be f**** buddies....!

i was so offended. keep in mind btw, the reason i broke up with him was he allowed his girl friends to treat me badly and took their side and considered his ex his best friend and was always doing her favors and at her apartment...!!

so you could say he had it coming

anyway, when he texted me a week later, i was polite and took the opportunity to let him know i was no longer interested in contact with him.

he replied in a crude manner, again suggesting we just meet for sex. i was mad, offended and wanted him to know that it was over FOR REAL

.......so i lied and told him i met someone else and was deliriously happy.

i also did this because i wanted to hurt him back SO bad like he had continuously hurt me for the duration of our relationship.

if he's not lying, he's definitely playing it up to you- trust me.

June 21, 2011

oh and the annoying phone problem....

block his number and texts etc

the BEST way to do this, and i reccomend it, is to change your number. NO excuses! this is your sanity on the line here!

June 21, 2011

doesn't make it suck less, but I'm trying to see the good in all this; at least the relationship ended and I know he has a new girl all in the same day... that at least 2 sad things happened at once so i can deal with them together.

*big hug to you*

I am going through a very very similar situation actually. I spent a year with a guy who I was perfect with. Perfect relationship. We never fought once. He met a coworker a couple months ago who came on super strong (though she was/is married) and despite me being open about how her late night phone calls, constant facebooking bothered me... my ex assured me there was nothing to worry about. He started going through a rough, depressed time in his life and randomly at the end of May, after a happy year-long relationship, dumped me. Within the last 3 weeks, she's since filed for divorce and moved in with my ex because "she has nowhere else to go."

At least you can be thankful your ex fessed up. My ex STILL swears there's nothing going on between them, despite the fact that he has been spending a major amount of time with her since he dumped me... even going WAY out of his way to help her shop for a new car (since her hubby took hers away) and letting her move in. I thought I was going to marry this guy-- and he told me when we broke up he thought I was so amazing... etc. but he just wasn't ready to be committed or wasn't sure if he'd ever wanna remarry again. Essentially he left me for a woman who is JUST LIKE the cheating, manipulative ex wife he had, and the worst part is I too know who his new fling is. It's the girl I never trusted in the first place.

I know EXACTLY how depressed and emotional you are. I have my strong days-- I recently bought a BRAND NEW car that I wanted for a while and I am working toward finishing my second degree. It's been 3 weeks but it's hard... it isn't getting easier and there's still a part of me that hopes, truly, that he isn't seeing her and it's all a coincidence. There's still a part of me that wants him to come crawling back and apologize... to work things out somehow. I probably won't ever know the truth, like you did. I wish!! I think it would make it easier!!

Just know that everyone is here for you and we've all been there or ARE there. Things have a way of working out the way they're meant to. Hopefully your situation works out the way you want it to

June 21, 2011

LOL I'll give that relationship 3-4 months tops. I've been there, done that.

June 21, 2011

anyone else feel like dying or giving up or that it's never gunna get better? I don't want to be with anyone but him. I'll be miserable without him forever I feel. I'll never move on from him because I love him so much.

I think that most of us felt that way at some point. I can guarantee you that it will get better with time. It took me 8 months to heal, and even now I have my moments that I become enraged over the way he treated me. But when I saw him in public I felt nothing. That is when I realized that hating him had become habit. So now I work to stop that habit and start a positive one....like thinking about my beautiful future.

Good luck.

June 22, 2011

Since my post was semi-revived, I'll give an update:

first week was a hysterical cry-Im not gunna make it-tear fest'. Classic going around the apt in pajamas, messy hair in a bun, eating ice cream out of a container and watching TV in bed. [hey go big or go home right??] I seriously seriously did not think I was going to literally survive the first week. Pretty much thought I didn't want to live without him. I don't regret spending that first week like that though - I needed it.

LS was a constant for me in the mornings because thats my worst time of day (still is), mostly because of the dreams at night but I haven't cried since the first week. Packed up reminders into a box and his friend came to get his stuff. I still frequent here and have cut and pasted and saved inspirational replies from others when i feel I need a pick me up the most.

Trying to focus on myself now - I will be the first to admit I was extremely codependent in the relationship. I loved him so much I lost myself in him, and so when he left me for her, I felt my identity left me too. Can you say panic mode? I felt he took the life out of me and I was a shell. Felt like I was literally nothing without him. But now I'm saying I gotta be my own person before I can be a person for someone else. Have to love myself before other people can love me.

It's only been 3 weeks but I feel better. Not 100%, but definitely better... this website has been a Godsend, the other users who have helped me have been beyond wonderful. I don't know where I'd be without reading on LS. Im confident I can live without him and I can see a future for myself without him in it. I'm taking a class I've always wanted to sign up for, had a girls weekend out on a rented catamaran, and I now take walks with upbeat music everyday. I have a wonderful career and working keeps my mind off things.

I have come to terms that it is definitely over. 100% never going to happen with us again. Its better to leave a broken mirror broken, instead of hurting yourself trying to put it back together. I don't want the good memories we shared to be overshadowed by negative feelings and words that could be shared if I wasn't in strict NC.

I know I'm not healed yet. I still struggle at night, struggle in the mornings, struggle with certain songs or movies, and struggle with certain thoughts about the relationship as I process the end of it... I miss him very much, and still think about him everyday, but I know those struggles will get better with time... and I know I'm going to have my ups and downs - and I can come to LS for them.

I've made it to the stage of acceptance - a place I'd never thought I'd be.

Edited June 22, 2011 by california15

June 22, 2011

You inspire me so much, you just don't know it... (well now maybe you do lol).

But 3 weeks!! WOOHOO!!! It's amazing how time, and being disciplined in remaining silent and focused gives us the power to heal.

I thought about you today when I drove past Target lol, it's great to see how far we've come... from being broken and crushed, to striving for strength in independence. Proud of you cali!

June 22, 2011

Thanks! Its the little steps in the moving on process that are motivators. I feel that we've both grown so much in the past few weeks and you might agree that posting replies ourselves can be just as therapeutic. And I always enjoy reading your posts - very encouraging! I don't think you get PM though...

Yeah... watch out for Target... I know I do haha

June 22, 2011

Thanks! Its the little steps in the moving on process that are motivators. I feel that we've both grown so much in the past few weeks and you might agree that posting replies ourselves can be just as therapeutic. And I always enjoy reading your posts - very encouraging! I don't think you get PM though...

Yeah... watch out for Target... I know I do haha

Cali,

I remember my first week too. I stayed in my pjs all week, didn't wash my hair or shower (blech), ate everything out of a container or can, plates in the sink, apartment in a mess and all i did was lay in bed. Sometimes I wished the mattress would open up and swallow me whole and that would be the end of it!

Then 2nd week, I washed my hair! Yay! And I slowly started moving. Cleaned a little. Laid on the bed. Ate a little. Laid on the bed.

3rd week. I was able to put my make up on. I was able to see a friend. Then it just progressed.

You're getting there. I remember your first post. I literally felt pain for you. I remember feeling that same way.

Speaking of Target. That week that I caught him, I fell sick. In my stinky pjs and matted greasy hair, no make up (not even mascara and mom always said never leave home without your face made because you'll never know who you're going to meet!), I went to the local pharma store to get cold meds. I looked like the Crypt Keeper. There he was standing in line. Crisp white shirt and blue jeans. 5 o'clock shadow. Big blue eyes and soft blonde hair. Those strong arms reaching out and handing the cashier his cash. I froze and he turned and looked at me. I looked at his face, that strong jawline, pearly whites...he smiled. I snubbed him and just walked quickly into the store and hid in one of the aisles praying he wouldn't come around. He didn't. I went to get my medicine. Tears running down my face. I didn't even know what I was looking for. Crying at the checkout. Had to pass his house on the way home and cried some more. Torture!

Now I do all my shopping much much further away. I don't want to risk another run in with him!

We'll get there. Slowly but surely. You're doing great!!! If you are feeling this way in your 3rd week, double that and imagine how you'll be feeling in a couple of months! You are well on your way. Keep doing what you are doing.

Edited June 22, 2011 by geegirl

June 22, 2011

I'm thrilled to hear you are making moves for YOU. It takes time, and your first week "lifestyle" is totally justified, hell, even if you were like that for a month, I'd say it is allowed! haha

I am 3 months out- and finally getting better. It is so hard bc we have lots of mutual friends, so I've seen him about 8 times, seen him with other girls etc. So I'd say my healing process is a bit adapted as I dont/cant go full NC, and I see and hear things I'd rather not eww. But I'm finally getting there, seeing him with multiple other woman, having him lie to me post breakup, total lack of regard for me, etc...it makes me stronger!

Great job for only 3 weeks out- and dont worry if you have your slip ups or moments. I too get in that panic mode every so often when I'm like "hes gone, everything he said meant nothing, how could he treat me like this" etc- but it passes and you realize you will be ok on your own til a new wonderful person comes into your life!!

June 22, 2011

I've gotten alot of kind responses lately and I meant to respond earlier:

bikini beach: that sucks that your ex was offering the f*** buddy route; at least you know his true colors and don't have to worry about a db like that anymore. Its insulting to the relationship in my opinion anyway to have that after wards. I don't want to change my number because all my friends/family/coworkers/cable etc have it... but I refuse to break NC. I thought about the lying too . He said he only knew her 2 weeks and they were moving in together blah blah shes the one. It makes me wonder if she was in the picture alot longer than 2 weeks...

brokenfaith: thanks for the hug! congrats on the car. Your ex is a jerk and I know what you mean that you feel like part of you wants them to come back and apologize. It would be nice... but I'm not olding my breath. And if he does ever apologize, it would probably come many many years from now, when I'm long gone.

lalalandman: yeah seriously. Sucks when you're hurting and struggling to move on and they're with someone else. Idk though he said he's never been happier than he is with her

shayla: you're right - there is a beautiful future ahead of us. And I can't wait til I can see him and be okay and not let my heart and breathing get all out of wack.

Geegirl: thanks for replying - you were one of the first posters to comment on my story. The first week was literally hell. I had never been in so much pain before I wasn't sure I would know how to deal. Our first encounters at the store sound similar! Now I look at Target and I probably won't go back there again for a while - shopping elsewhere now! I hope this is a true feeling of moving on and not just a few good days strung together. But really, I do think I've made progress and that I'm starting to heal for real.

shortee: I don't know how you do it, being able to see him. My one and only (thus far) post breakup run in was awful (i posted a new thread about it when it happened). I'm glad you used all those things as a motivator to get stronger. Thanks for the encouragement

June 22, 2011

Cali, I'm also very proud of you. I remember when I first read your story and I thought to myself, "WOW - I've heard a lot of a*shole break up stories in my day, but this one might be in the top 5". Seriously. And I live in a big city with as*holes tend to congregate and wreak a lot of havoc; but the way you were broken up with was down right inhumane. Mostly, I thought to myself, "I hope to god she doesn't try to go back to this person. I hope she doesn't get on the "I miss my huge as*hole boyfriend" merry-go-round, and you DIDN'T. You stayed stong. I know it's been hard; setting standards for yourself and your relationships isn't easy. But once the standard is set, and your next relationship meets that standard, you'll NEVER, from that point onward "lower the bar". 1 year from now, you'll look back at this, and you'll be so glad, if not downright grateful, that all this hell happened. No pain, no gain kind of thing. I almost married my first boyfriend, my high school sweetheart. He dumped me for someone else, after 4 years. He was drop dead gorgeous and also rode motorcycles. I was suicidal over the break up. He contacted me recently to tell me his father passed away (which was sort of irrelevant to me). I asked him how he was doing...he said he's been in and out of rehab for the past 6 years, and that he's currently unemployed. It wasn't shocking though, he was like that when we dated. He just...never changed (of course). Last night I went out on a date with my neighbor, who's a complete gentleman, funny, not to mention attractive (and being a PhD at caltech doesn't hurt). And you know what he said to me, he said, "I don't want to sound insecure, but I have trouble believing I can get a girl like you". In my mind, I was like "FOR REAL!?". Anyway, moral of the story, stay true to yourself, don't ever, for anyone, lower your standards of self-respect, and you will get that man, that job, those experiences, that you want and deserve. You WILL get it. Anyway, sorry to ramble. Keep it up, and girl power.

June 24, 2011

Thanks for the kind words stray:). I do miss him, but not enough to get on the merry-go-round- you're talking about. I miss him, but I hurt too much to let him have the opportunity to do that to me again. Trust me, this is the last time I ever want to go through this and I'd be stupid to go through it again because I gave him a second chance.

When I was asking a male friend about things during the rocky month before the phone call, I detailed things my (now ex) bf said or did - or lack of things said or did (like no-show etc) and my friend said, "What would you do if it wasn't HIM acting like a jerk towards you? What if it was some other guy who called you stupid, or was a no show on a planned date, or told you you needed to look better? You're letting all those things slide because it's him, but if I or any other guy did that you'd get mad and wouldn't put up with that crap at all. He's not special if he's doing that to you, so don't give him special treatment like that and let it slide"

And he was SO right.

And you reiterated it; Its all about gaining my self-esteem and self-respect back. I don't want to be alone forever, but at the same time I won't lower my standards or settle, just to say I have someone. Thanks for sharing part of your story - your neighbor sounds like a great guy

June 29, 2011

So you all know I'm taking this NC thing pretty seriously and in order to properly heal, I need to be in NC not only with him, but his family too. Didn't tell them goodbye though - figured it was pretty self explanatory why I would no longer be at holidays and family functions.

So same goes with his friends, right?? However, one of his friends (whom I met through my ex) has been calling me non-stop ever since my ex and I broke up. The friend and I weren't even that close to begin with when my ex and I were together so this is bizarre.

I'm not on the fence as to whether I should reply or not... and even though I'm curious as to why all of a sudden this interest in talking to me, its not enough to answer his (the friend) calls. I don't really care to hear what he has to say actually.

wtf you know. I don't want anything in my life right now thats going to remind me of the ex. nothing. no family, no friends, no nothing.

June 29, 2011

What you don't know won't hurt you! Keep what/who could potentially affect you away, far away...just until you are emotionally and mentally strong. My 2 cents.

June 30, 2011

What you don't know won't hurt you! Keep what/who could potentially affect you away, far away...just until you are emotionally and mentally strong. My 2 cents.

Exactly! "What you dont know cant hurt you". Not for nothing, but as I've mentioned, I see my ex, so never went full NC. Now 3 months out, and I've seen him like almost 10 times...I kinda wish I woulda just stayed away those first few months! Now it's too late- I had ex sex, I know WAY too much, he now has a new gf..although my contact in terms of seeing him might be limited now bc seeing him post breakup is one thing, but with a new gf is another. You are doing great with the NC and your healing (as I've followed the threads a bit since I think your healing is helpful to me ) I'm not sure why your ex's friend contacted you...hmm but although curiosity gets the best of us- better to just avoid it, and you seem like your fine with doing that!!

June 30, 2011

yeah I dont know what his problem is. I figure he'll get the hint when I don't answer or call him back. It can't be THAT important because no voicemails are left.

So its been about a month now, give or take a day or two.

In the beginning I checked my phone incessantly and got butterflies everytime it went off (I think i posted here about it, and not feeling 'normal' with my phone) because I wanted the "I made a mistake" text. But now Its better. I'm okay with my phone now. I still get butterflies if I get a late night text, but the "i hope its him" butterflies I initially had have been replaced with "omg please don't let it be him".

That being said, my urge to break NC is slim to none (however, unlike some of you I don't have the "I miss you" ex texts that i'm sure are hard to resist). I've had a moment or two where I wanted to call him but I can count those times on 1 hand and the moment left as quickly as it came. It could be because I'm so stubborn that I've made it a month, no way in hell would I want to be at day 1 again if I could help it. That and hearing his voice knowing he's with someone else would be too painful at this point I think coupled with the 'i don't want to know' mindset that was mentioned. I miss him still and have my sad moments, but not enough to break NC.

If my one - month self could tell my 1-day self anything, it would be that everything is going to be okay, things will work out how they're supposed to, and to love and respect yourself above all else.

and thank you shortee! I hope my posts or healing can be encouraging to others. If some good can come out of my suffering (so to speak) after my breakup, then I'm glad. I'm not 100% there yet and probably still have a ways to go but I'm definitely in a better place now than I was and in posting to help others I've been helping myself.

July 7, 2011

I made it through the holiday weekend - his birthday/barbique thing. Will admit it was hard to not be there with everyone and hard not to text him happy birthday... but I held strong and did not.

He's currently on his annual surfing trip with the new girl... so I guess I can safely shop to my hearts desire in Target now...

I'm not sure if this is a stage per se, but I keep going over the last argument we had and 'THE CALL' I got when it was all over. I know going over what he said multiple times isn't going to change the outcome, and isn't going to bring him back and ultimately doesn't matter, but it seems like recently I've just been in the 'going over the last phone call' stage. Which at times brings along the "what-if I..." questions - which are equally as trivial as repeating the phone call.

I suppose I'm doing it because 1) I want to learn from my mistakes, learn from what he didn't like to apply it to the next relationship and 2) this is the most painful thing I'm overcoming and if there is anything I could do to prevent myself from feeling like this again, then I'll do it.

I thought the over-analyzing-their-last-words stage would have been closer to the actual breakup, and not 5 weeks out... ?

maybe i'm doing it now because its around his birthday and I subconsiously miss him.

I dont know what hurts more - the fact he DIDN'T WANT to be with me, didn't want to have sex with me anymore, didn't want to share the rest of his life with me

or the fact he want's to do that with someone else... IS doing that with someone else.

And I don't even know if they're 2 separate feelings, or one in the same that I'm getting confused - at this point I feel its 2 separate things... none of which even matter. ?!?!?!?!

I'm still moving on though. . just wanted to release a little of the thoughts swirling through my head.

July 7, 2011

Don't you dare give him ALL the power. Please, in the name of Jesus Christ cry out to our heavenly Father him and tell him you are hurting and ask him to give you the strength and peace you need to let go and LIVE for him. You may not see it right now, but you will be able to look back on this and be glad you went through it in order to get to where you need to be. Love yourself enough and know you deserve better. You have much to live for.

July 7, 2011

I thought the over-analyzing-their-last-words stage would have been closer to the actual breakup, and not 5 weeks out... ?

I was doing the same Cali and I spoke to my Therapist about it. She told me as soon as my mind started to wonder towards my ex, to stop myself and turn it back inwards towards me. I hadn't a clue what she meant by that at the time, but now it makes sense. She said we focus on the other person (and their faults), because sometimes we don't want to have to face the pain of grieving for the relationship. That's completely understandable. Dealing with emotions and feelings can be a very uncomfortable process, no wonder we want to put it off..

You are doing great in your recovery, but going over these kind of thoughts in your head will only slow down your progress. A few idea's how to stop focusing on these kind of thoughts -> In the future when these kind of thoughts come into your head, write them down on paper. Maybe as a diary entry (don't edit it, whatever is in your head write it down). Maybe write a letter to your ex, but never send it. I found writing, when I was over thinking/over analyzing to be very Theraputic. If you don't feel like writing, maybe take a long walk, or work out. Call a friend or family member and discuss anything but your ex. Maybe come on here and offer people advice. Another idea is mediation. This is not everyone's cup of tea, many sceptics out there. Here is a post from HeartofaPhoenix. Cali maybe it's worth a try?

""Meditation

find a comfortable chair, close your eyes, and focus on your breathing (think "IN" when you inhale, think "OUT" when you exhale)

after you have focused on your breathing for about a minute, imagine yourself in a VERY relaxing place (most comfortable chair, lying on the beach, ect... ect...)

after you reach this relaxing place, just let your mind wonder. don't fight any thought that comes to your head just let it go through your mind and then let it go (kind of like you are watching a parade of your emotions as they approach you and eventually go out of sight).

I did this for about 10 minutes per day after my break up. Even when I wasn't experiencing bad emotions

The Release Technique

find a comfortable chair, close your eyes, and focus on your breathing (think "IN" when you inhale, think "OUT" when you exhale)

after you focus on your breathing for about a minute, Think of a situation that evokes a POWERFUL emotional response. Allow yourself to feel that emotion for a few seconds.

Now ask yourself these questions:

Could you Allow yourself to feel this emotion? and answer Yes or No

Could you Try to let it go? answer yes or no (is it possible that you could try to let it go?)

Could you Hold onto it? yes or no (if you say yes, you gain the power of knowing that you are holding onto it on purpose)

Then go back to Could you Try to let it go? yes or no

Now if you answered Yes to could you try to let it go, now ask yourself: When?

This should allow you to see that you are intentionally holding onto toxic emotions, and in doing so will help you get rid of them. If it doesn't work for you the first time you do this try again tomorrow. this technique doesn't work for everyone on the first try. It is recommended that you do this technique at least 3 times on 3 separate days before you give up on it."

Edited July 7, 2011 by Mack05

July 18, 2011

weellll.... I've hit 7 weeks of NC.

And I hit my first low of the roller coaster ride, so I'm writing to hopefully feel a little better, while I start on the way up. I mean its the first time I've cried over this sh*t since the first week. Its coming out of the blue, so I'm hoping it leaves just as quickly as it came.

Now its the thoughts of what I'm missing out on (weddings together, vacations, summer cookouts etc) that are getting to me. I have a wedding to go to in 3 weeks and now I'm like... who will go with me!?

I mean I know he's not thinking like I am by any means... I just wish things were different. And things didn't happen the way they did. But where did wishing get anyone!? Feelings like this are illogical, which help me put them aside, but at the same time the heart still feels something... because its a heart I suppose. Don't get me wrong - I DO NOT WANT TO BE WITH HIM. Its just the feeling of being so comfortable with someone, and now the comfort is gone. But then that makes me think if I want a "comfortable" relationship just because its what I know... and nots what best for me.

Still having the dreams: but now they're dreams where he's in trouble (ie speeding, selling drugs, caught in the mud) but I can't help him. I just watch. I mean, at least they aren't dreams about him and her anymore!!

And really, I miss his family so much. They didn't do anything wrong in the breakup, but still, being around them for so long... you know?? Ugh... and I see his stupid bike EVERYWHERE. Logically I know its completely over and its for the best, but I still think I'll always find that guy on a motorcycle really attractive.

Posting on others threads have helped me heal this far, so For all you newbie broken-hearters, you'll be okay I promise. The faster you reach acceptance, the better. Grieve the loss, and its ok to cry. Stick with NC - its hard but its so worth it - you're worth it. You can do this and you'll find someone better. And as much as you think you NEED them, you don't. You only have one life, and you deserve to enjoy it (with or without them), so go out and put yourself first and love yourself and respect yourself. Don't wait on someone.

Edited July 18, 2011 by california15

July 18, 2011

congrats on the progress you've made, 7 weeks NC is quite the feat of strength.

from what I experienced is yes you will have those ups and downs, like riding a roller-coaster as you said. But as time goes on it seems like your downs are much shorter each time and soon you won't have those lows any more.

July 25, 2011

Cali you're doing so good! I'm happy for you. I think the sad moments just pop in for a sec to break your resolve, but if you keep kicking their butt like you are now, going forward hopefully will get smoother and those moments will be far a few between.

July 25, 2011

Wow..im sorry =( I know what it feels like, I’ve had something quite similar happen to me actually. I can tell you now though as I look back and the hell I went through. It is best to just move, give it some time and this horrible thing will play out. Just take it slow and step by step, I know its hard but you have to start somewhere. As much as you’ll probably hate me to say it, the best thing right now is probably for you to stay apart from him, don't call or anything for awhile. Give it a break and he will probably realize what a mistake he made and see that there was nothing in the other girl sooner or later. It may still all work out in the end. I mean moving in together after 2 weeks? Never a sign of a good healthy relationship. Maybe he just needs to take a break to see what else is out there and once he has he'll miss what he had before and come back. There also are some online programs out there to, I learned some good advice from some of them, one that sticks out the most was http://www.waystogetbackatyourex.com. You may check into something like that. Really hope this all works out for you in the end =/

July 25, 2011

I PROMISE you it will get better. You need to grieve. Keep yourself busy and surround yourself with family and friends. Get out and do things.

i think its too much of him. if he wants a break-up, he shouldnt tell you he is seeing a new girl etc, and how happy they are.

Find a better man and show him how much better you have become after leaving him.

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