lazyhyper Posted May 29, 2011 Posted May 29, 2011 (edited) Hey there, I apologize if this gets too long, but I just really need to get it out of my system. I was never in a romantic relationship with this girl. I'm five years older than she is - I'm 26 she's 21. We started talking after meeting her one day at her job and she really sparked my interest. Things moved kinda fast with regards to deep conversations. She confided in me with just about everything. I found her funny, smart, and just a really cool person in general and she said the same thing about me. She would call and text me on a daily and we would see each other regularly. I started developing feelings for her and I made her aware of it but she suggested that we stay friends because she was busy with work and school, which as a busy person myself, I could relate to. I didn't argue with her but the more I got to know her, the stronger the feelings became and the more I discussed the possibility of taking things further. She remained insistent on keeping things cool because she didnt want to date, but after a year of this back and forth game, she finally admitted that she was in a relationship for a while and didnt tell me because she knew how I felt about her and didnt want to hurt my feeling. It devastated me because I felt betrayed. I couldnt see how she would keep something like that for me and just keep me hanging on. Anyway, she got out of her relationship (guy cheated) and we stayed in contact. I was going through some difficult times myself and she was there for me as I was for her. But I couldn't take it anymore. I mean, I love the girl to death, but I felt that by sticking around and trying to stay friends when I had these feelings, it would only hurt me and her in the long run, so I talked to her, told her how I felt and she turned me down once again. I stopped talking to her cold turkey. she called once or twice over the next couple of days but stopped shortly after. It's been over a month since I stopped talking to her and I was just starting to better about things until I ran into her today with some other guy - she saw me but I didnt say anything, neither did she, we just went along our own way. Now here I am again just going through it. I have the same feeling I had the day I decided to stop talking to her now, which is heartbreaking. i've known her for 2 years and I'm just having a very hard time getting over her. I've dated throughout those two years of course, but surprisingly, everytime I went out with someone, regardless of how pretty, smart and cool they were, I just couldnt get her out of my mind enough to let things materialize. I'm a pretty social person. I'm surrounded by good people. I've been on a fast track career wise; I'm not bad looking and I have a chill personality, so I thought it would be easy to remove myself from this situation, but damn was I wrong. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Edited May 29, 2011 by lazyhyper more description.
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