Starsky_182 Posted May 26, 2011 Posted May 26, 2011 Hi guys, i posted back in March that i had split with my gf, although things have got a lot easier, she still creeps into my mind, i feel kinda pathetic posting this really but i cant shake it off, the worst part is i know there would be no chance of me ever going back there, but its asif my mind enjoys making me think about her and punishing me? It hurt so bad when i heard within weeks of me ending it she was with someone else considering she 'loved me' but i since heard that ended, and was just a rebound...apparently... I torture myself thinking about her out with her friends dating new guys not giving me a second thought.... Ive never had this before, im used to being able to solve my own problems and take things on the chin, im an independent man and i tend to keep things to myself, im usually the guy giving the advice! Im driving myself insane here, its not that i want her back i just want it all to stop, and me to move on. I only have to hear a certain song from a certain artist and its back, i have to switch it off! Im in the gym every night, am very active and like to keep busy, but i come home to an empty house and as hard it is for me to admit it, i guess i start to feel lonely.... but this is where i am my own worst enemy, because i have zero interest in anyone, so although i go out of a weekend to socialise its like ive completely lost my mojo and i just feel i want to be rescued haha god help me! What chance have i got of meeting someone if i have no interest, how am i supposed to move forward?! I can’t believe i let a relationship do this to me! I find it difficult to post my feelings like this but, but i have found your input has helped me before....
SCG_Sasa1111 Posted May 29, 2011 Posted May 29, 2011 Bro I feel the exact same way. My ex after 4.5 year relationship decided to leave me for this guy in her science program from university after she got attached to him when I left for 2 weeks for my country overseas. Go figure right? It took 15 days for her to develop "feelings" for another person after she was devastated I was gone and told me that if I never left this wouldn't have happened. What sucks is this happened to me back in november with midterms around the corner so my mind has been really messed up since then. Its almost June now and I can tell you that although ive gotten a bit better; i still find myself thinking bout her and the relationship so much because its summer and ive just gotten used to her being there always for 4.5 years its hard to get used to all of this. I go out but as you said I have no interest its still too early to do anything or find somone new because its still so fresh. I just feel like a different person as well and I hate how im letting her ruin my life and how happy I am. I will admit this is the worst pain I have ever felt before and I know that this will forever have an effect on my life from now on. In terms of relationships, trusts, loving,, care.. I will always have this experience in the back of my mind. I feel like I could never put the same trust into someone again after this and I feel like I will be too cold and will not let anyone in after I have gotten this burned by the one person I cared about. Its sad..really to think about it over and over again and how someone can just completley erase you like that. The fact that its summer vacation now and I have 4 months off does not help because it just gives me even more time to dwell on all of this. I know exactly how you are feeling and It's getting harder for me than it is getting easier. As time goes on I feel like im getting worse...I have no idea why. I just want the old me to come back, the one who isn't thinking bout this anymore. It is just the fact that this happened to me that gets me. The fact that she did this to me after so long and Its hard as a man to accept that. Its a blow to your ego, to your pride and everything you have put in. I guess my only advice is to not let anyone walk over you...and what I say to myself: she did this, she choose this let her live with the fact I am not in her life anymore. F**K IT. What can we do...
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