Love Stinks Posted May 24, 2011 Posted May 24, 2011 Ok, waking up this morning has got to be the roughest day of my no contact....personally my parents and everyone agrees with me that my ex needs to grow up and stop calling the kettle black and really take a hard look at themselves... it is just really hard because the love that we had between each other was and in my opinion still is so strong. I just woke up this morning wondering how am I going to live without my best friend in my life. I am getting the bright idea to try and reach out to her I am and always be a hopeless romantic and so is she...I know all the right things to say and do and although it might be better if we are apart I dont want her moving on. I have been in a few relationships and the way this girl felt about me I just can't describe the love she had for me, yet also how she pushed me away because I wasn't perfect in every aspect. I feel so bad for my ex, idk why but we had this unspoken connection and i just feel like i lost a HUGE part of my life. Come to find out, our mutual friends are telling me that she is drinking way to much, and making a fool of herself. I just want to be the guy to go in there and rescue her...Idk today is just extra tough for some reason. Personally, I am coping in the wrong ways, as I am a good looking guy with many girl friends, I am becoming somewhat of a Charlie Sheen when it comes to the women in my life. I will admit that I am definitely having sex with all these girls to take my mind off my ex but none of it seems to be working. I mean this past weekend turned into a 4 day party. I am not sure if I would call it a bender it was what it was though. For example I hooked up with my massage therapist, a girl from work, a girl I met online, and my friends little brothers ex all in one weekend and it all has me smdh. Things were just so much simpler, or at least I think they were when I was in a committed relationship. The idea I was having today was to just let her know how I still care for her, and the reason we didn't work out was because she pushed me away, and I want to let her know that as soon as she is ready to get back together I am too. I don't care for these other girls and honestly I think they know that too. So I guess I am debating contacting her, because honestly I really really do miss my best friend, we told each other everything and now I have to live without that and it stinks. I should just man up. Idk what do you guys think. And yes I am using protection.
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