hummingbird Posted May 23, 2011 Posted May 23, 2011 hi- I have read a bit here and have to say-- I am sorry to read of the heartache so many are enduring.... it seems so unfair in life to go through. I am writing because a week ago my SO ( long distance by 2 hr drive) ended or R while I was waiting for him to arrive at my house ( we shared weknds together) by email! " I don't love you any more" yet, 2 months ago we were on vacation together and last month he professed his love and life long committment. it is very painful - and frightening...we are both 49 with grown or college age kids.. we have been togehter 2.5 years.. we both went through divorce then a relationship before we met. He hates his ex wife- his ex gf was an alchoholic who cheated on him. 2 years Later we met and well, with me... I loooovvveeed him with all my heart but often struggled with his priorities and sometimes feeling I/our R wasn't at the top of his priorities. I know in part, some of my boundaries that he grew tired of were a challenge for him, but the emotinal abuse I went through with the previous R i had ..hurt me deeply-- but he knew and I believed understood. his reason for ending it was because our interests were to far apart --- it took him almost 3 years to figure out we were diverse?? wtf? i have started on antideppresants and taking sleepng pills and just feel like an empty vacccum of nothingness.. we talked about growing old together.. living together, ...I was going to sell my house..... my life/future has so dramatically been altered and... I am not in my 20s.... how does someone who loves you one day , do this the next? I am absolutely lost in my life right now.... I love him and care so much about him.... I sent him 3 emails a week ago and a letter and have also blocked everything and made NC.. and he may have too but i blocked him immediately from everything..tore up pictures... it was painful and still is... I can't get how we were making love a week before and how life just turned me upside down a week later.. thoughts in my head hurt and make me crazy--- him with other women.. what is he doing? is he pining? will he want me back.. omg................... i wish i could just sledge hammer my brain ... my heart already has been.. hummingbird[COLOR=#000000]View Public Profile[/COLOR][COLOR=#000000]Find More Posts by hummingbird[/COLOR]
NSDNQ Posted May 23, 2011 Posted May 23, 2011 I've given up trying to make sense of it. its the way it is.
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