brokendreamz Posted May 23, 2011 Posted May 23, 2011 Hmmmm. Went away this weekend camping with a good mate, I always used to do this with my ex and his girlfriend and even though it was just the two of us this time, I missed her alot so ended up drinking to forget. The thing is, today I just feel sad - I spent 8 years with her and I simply miss her. I mean REALLY miss her, she wasn't just my Fiance, she was my best friend - I still can't believe she's gone. It's been a little ofer 4 months now and it's a LOT easier but the flashes of her with another guy (she didn't cheat but I have no idea if she's with someone else) still rip through my chest and I cant believe that after 8 years together, once the house sale is completed I'll probably never hear from her again! To be fair, we only talk business about the house any way, but I'd still rather that than nothing. I've changed in so many ways but she has no way of knowing this and I think that if I try to tell her it won't make any difference. She's gone and she's not comiong back! There's nothing to come back to anyway since the house will be gone shortly. This is still too hard. I'm worried that I still feel so much for her after 4.5 months. Just a rant I guess - thanks for listening!
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