ShoeGurl1973 Posted May 22, 2011 Posted May 22, 2011 I'm coming on two months of NC and it seems at each month milestone I get really emotional. Maybe because its an indicator as each month goes by my relationship turns further and further into a distant memory. He's not coming back, heck, I wouldn't take him back if he showed up with a ring on my doorstep he hurt me so bad. Despite this, I am crying everytime I turn around and I don't know why. I think the shock of everything is gone, and now its hard to be angry consistantly - I keep thinking of the good times, wondering how he could leave so easily. It's so hard to have someone in your life for 3.5 years and then have to deal with them being permanently gone forever. I hate feeling like this...I'm 37 and feel too old to find someone. I'm going to be an old lady with cats, I just know it.
geegirl Posted May 22, 2011 Posted May 22, 2011 I'm coming on two months of NC and it seems at each month milestone I get really emotional. Maybe because its an indicator as each month goes by my relationship turns further and further into a distant memory. He's not coming back, heck, I wouldn't take him back if he showed up with a ring on my doorstep he hurt me so bad. Despite this, I am crying everytime I turn around and I don't know why. I think the shock of everything is gone, and now its hard to be angry consistantly - I keep thinking of the good times, wondering how he could leave so easily. It's so hard to have someone in your life for 3.5 years and then have to deal with them being permanently gone forever. I hate feeling like this...I'm 37 and feel too old to find someone. I'm going to be an old lady with cats, I just know it. Shoe, I always used to make that joke about my knitting and my next steps would be to get cats and that would complete my lonely 40 year old life! But 5 months since the break up, I've been out there making new girlfriends, taking trips to see new sights and cultures, going to events and meeting good people, investing my time in volunteering, hanging out with my best girlfriends, ...there's more to life than just sitting around and wanting a man to complete you. My aunt is 58 and was divorced for 20 years and never dated (her choice to just enjoy her life alone) after that. Six months ago she met a man while she was on vacation by herself and they're now engaged and she's happy as a clam. Your age does not determine when he walks in. Don't revolve yourself around a time clock. Live. He will come when he comes and if he doesn't you'll have a lot more going on in your life to keep you content, happy and living.
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