Iceybreaker Posted May 19, 2011 Posted May 19, 2011 Hello Ls, I came across my youtube channel and found some old comments from the ex and it was so easy to delete them..problem is i of course click to see his channel and long story short, i end up seeing him and the new gf's facebook. the girls fb was them two making out. its been months and ive been feeling absolutely great! but now, im so UPSET and ANGRY all over again that seeing it has almost rushed all these negative and angry feelings towards me again. i didnt think i could feel this pain again. i went to the LS chat room ( i recommend it, www.tinychat.com/myrelationship) and actually talked it out/vented a little which i havent done in MONTHS and thought i was indifferent to the bastard. the guy is an ******* and i cant stand him , super easy to delete his things, yet i still cant get past the anger? I hate the fact i saw all this NOW. i graduate on saturday and this is supposed to be the best day of my life. today was grad rehearsal/capstone/awards ceremony and i was enjoying myself with my class but randomnly in the middle of the professor telling us what to do the image of the making out profile pic came to mind of course and i felt like **** all of a sudden. UGH. then i started feeling all sad...even though later on i won two money awards, got 3 honors cords, an honors and leadership plaque, and a leadership sash to go with my gown. i still felt really down >.< how in the world can i get past this? is there any way to delete these horrid memories? its a little less than a year now and i wish i never ever met this person, so horrid, and i dont want any of the abusive memories to continue to haunt me forever. it sucks, a lot.
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