you cant change the past

[usabup]

My ex broke up with me nearly 3 months ago. In that time iv begged and pleaded for a second chance, but it obviously got me nowhere! She really dosnt give a damn about me anymore. Its my fault, I caused the break up with stupid mistakes.

 

I'm currently in the early stages of 60 day nc to try and heal. Its hard. Really hard. I feel just as bad today as I did during the first week of our seperation. I feel sick, tearfull and alone. I hate every single minute of this and I just wish it would all go away. Its the worst feeling of my life.

 

In my head, I keep going over and over all the things I did wrong and how I wished I had acted different. I keep going over and over all the mistakes I made after the break up. How I wish I had acted cooler or given her the space she needed. Man, I wish I had done things different.

 

But I realised tonight, I can't change the past. Nobody can. What's done is done. All I can change is my future and plan my own journey. I'm just so sad she won't be coming on that journey with me.

 

I don't know where I'm going with this, I just feel so bad.

[Mack05]

Focus on the future mate. One day at a time. We have all made mistakes and if it was right (and meant to be) we would still be together with these girls. Learning from mistakes is what is important now. The next person you meet you will have a clean slate with, a chance to show her who you really are..It will happen, just fight through the struggle. It's hard..I know this!

[usabup]

Thanks for your words mate, I really appreciate it.

 

Some days are just harder then others. And I'm just finding it hard to let go.

[Kodo]

At least you are willing to learn from your mistakes. She obvioiusly wasn't.

 

And you're right, we can't change the past. The hard part is accepting that. we're not stupid, we all know we can't, but unfortunately we also have an infinite imagination where we question everything around us.